My tears won't stop flowing and I just want to breakdown in front of him but I stopped myself. I don't want him to see me in this vulnerable state. I wiped my tears as I walked away from him. This time, uunahin ko naman ang sarili ko. I'm tired from all of these shits.
"Den, wait! Please listen to me first." He said as he grabbed my arm at pinaharap sa kaniya. I looked at him in the eyes but I can't tell anymore if he's being serious or not.
"Please Kyle, just let me be. I don't have the strength to believe you anymore. If it's another lie, just save it. Let's just part ways peacefully." I said to him, and again tears are falling from my eyes.
"No Den. I won't allow you. I am sorry okay? Just give me another chance to prove myself to you. I love you so much Den."
Hindi makapaniwalang tumingin ako sa kaniya. What's with all the bullshit? Hindi ko mapigilang matawa sa pinagsasabi niya.
"Really Kyle? You're saying that now? Sana naisip mo palang sa una yung mararamdaman ko sa ginawa mo. You cheated on me and yet you'll ask me for another chance? Do you think it's easy for me?"
Hindi siya makatingin sa mata ko and slowly his grasp is slipping away. Lumayo ako sa kaniya.
"You think it was easy? Making such decision of letting you go is not easy, and I suffered tremendously because of that. You didn't know what I've been through so you don't have the right na sabihing ikaw lang ang nasaktan dahil ako rin. Nasaktan din ako, may damdamin din ako. I loved you so much and yet this is what I get in return? Pain. Even though it hurts but I think this is the right thing to do. If unloving you is the way to end this pain, I will gladly do so. Ngayon, uunahin ko naman ang sarili ko. "
I walked away from him hoping that the pain will just go away but I know that it will take time. I hurriedly went to my car and cried my heart out as I can't handle the pain.
I hope that someday, things will be alright between us. For now, sarili ko naman ang ililigtas ko.
