i don't know if anyone is going to find this or if i'm even going to post this because i'm going to write it then decide, but this is just going to be a low pressure book about Noah Beck's little sister(oc), starting out in November 2020. Lotte will...
Warning: Slight mentions of the idea of eating disorders and body dysmorphia in the character's thoughts and actions. Also they allude to the self half in the last couple of chapters, but it is not mentioned at all. Please know what you as an individual can handle reading about.
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Lottie POV
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"Lottie! We're about to film the outro, you want to come down and judge their work?" Louis yells from the bottom of the stairs. I look up towards Jesus and Laura who are sitting across from me in the living room, shrugging. They smile, nodding back towards me. I stand up, my sweatshirt wrapped around me because it was a lot colder inside than outside and coming in was a shock.
It was nice of Dixie to grab it for me.
I run down the stairs, and as I walk into the studio room I see the six of them sitting on stools in front of the camera, a bunch of people from James' team sitting on the couches behind it.
"Heeeey Sister!" James says excitedly, making me realize that they have the camera rolling. I widen my eyes, nervous.
Everyone online hates me, why should I walk over there and be in a video for one of the most popular Youtuber's video?
Plus, who am I to judge makeup? Mara was always the one to like makeup.
Actually, when she died, and I started feeling myself slip away, I started wearing more makeup. She always wanted me to, and I didn't have many other ways to cope.
No Mara.
No Noah.
No TikTok.
No Quinton.
Why do they want me here? I should go back upstairs.
I go to turn around, but Jesus stops me, turning me around and pushing me towards my brother who is on the edge. I force a calm smile, walking on camera and standing awkwardly to the side. Noah grins, looking towards the camera and saying,
"If you don't know Lottie, she's my sister!" I smile awkwardly, waving towards the camera.
"Okay, Lottie, we need you to tell me how my makeup looks. I havent seen it yet, since we turned off the monitor, and no one has given me a mirror. Right?" He looks around and everyone resoundingly, on and off camera, yells that he hasn't. We all laugh before I walk over looking at it.
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