Chapter 2: morning.
I woke up in my room, it was raining as if the whole of the world was crying, shedding tears that I just couldn't. I looked at my school uniform and my dad walked in. I smiled as did he, his eyes were an irritated red and his cheeks were raw. "Here... you wear this around your arm." He said and handed me a black strip of cloth. I nodded and hugged him, "dad, please don't leave." I whispered and he patted down my hair, "I'll try sweetie, I'll try." He said and kissed my forehead where mom did and left.
I got dressed and wrapped the black cloth around my upper arm. I skipped breakfast, not hungry for anything, and walked out to the car. We drove to the school and I noticed that the driver also wore a morning band. "Have a nice day at school Miss." He said in a scratchy voice, "thank you."
I walked in and went up to the second music room. It was still clean and ready for use. I found a guitar and began to play
I can't sleep tonight,
Wide awake and so confused,
Everything's in line, but I'm bruised.
I need a voice to echo,
I need a light to take me home,
I kinda need a hero, is it you?
I never see the forest for the trees,
I could use your melody,
Baby I'm a little blind,
I think it's time for you to find me,
Can you be my nightingale?
Sing to me, I know your there!
You can be my sanity!
But bring me peace, I'm here to sleep.
Say you'll be my nightingale!
Somebody speak to me, because I'm feeling like Hell.
I felt tears rain on to my hands and I stopped playing. "Are you alright?" I looked up and saw the Host Club. I smiled, "good morning." I said and the bell rung. I wiped my tears away and grabbed my bag, "I can't be late." I said and they watched me as I left.
I got to class and sat down in the back beside the window. Everyone filed in and the teacher handed out a test all except to me. "Uh, teacher? I need a test as well." I said and she looked at me with sad eyes. "Are you sure?" She asked in a hushed voice, "I don't quite understand ma'am, this is a test, is it not? And I am a student, am I not?" I said and she placed her hand on my shoulder, "alright..." she said and gave me a test.
I answered all the questions and handed it back to her. I looked and saw everyone watching me. They didn't shy away, "back to work." The teacher said from behind me and I went to go back to my desk, everyone kept watching me. After a while I scooted my chair back causing it to scrape back. "As you may have heard, yes, my mother is dead. And I'd much appreciate it if you'd stop looking at me like I was some poor child who needs a shoulder to cry on!" I yelled and ran out of the room and ran out to the rose garden. I sat down in a marble area and leaned back and tried to breathe.
If I die young, bury me in satin.
Lay me down on a bed of roses,
Sink me in the river, at dawn,
Send me away with the words of a love song.
Uh oh, uh oh
Lord make me a rainbow,
I'll shine down on my mother...
I smiled as I began to cry at the song. I used to sing this when I was young and I wanted my mother to live longer than I. "You know, if you sing such sad songs, it's not going to make you feel any better." Tamaki said, I watched him as he sat down beside me. He was dripping wet, "such a beautiful smile... never belongs with such a dreadful song." He said, "It's not a dreadful song, it is about death, but it's also about living." I said and looked over to him, the bell rung, "I better get back to the music room." I said and got up. He grabbed my hand, "wait, why not come to the Host Club?" He asked, "sorry, I would rather not be with people who either look down their noses at me or pitty me from afar." I said and took my hand back.
I walked up the stairs and went into the music room. I heard giggling and and chatting on the other side of the wall. I sat down on one of the red velvet backed couch and I tried to drown out the laughter. It soon died down and I smiled, "God why? Why did it have to her and not me?" I whispered and sighed again, I got up and sat down at the piano. My mother loved it when I played the piano.
I promise, I promise
I'll be home
I'll be home
I'll be home
Santa called to make sure I'm prepared
He said wrap the gifts with all your love and care
The wind blow snow up in the sky
But I won't let wind to lay my flight
I'll be home with my love this Christmas
I promise, I promise
I'll be home with my love this Christmas
Tears fell onto the keys, as I tried to keep playing but I couldn't. I cleared my tears and and smiled, "never ever..." I said and sighed, this time of day was my mother's favorite... the sky says looked kissed by the last of the sun. "Aki-Chan?" I looked behind me and I saw the Host Club boys, "can you help Haruhi learn how to dance?" Hikaru asked, "we're all too tall, and Honey's a bit too short." Kaoru said, "sure. Anything to help." I said and got up, we walked to the club room. I smiled as I saw Haruhi but then looked at Tamaki who was sulking. I smiled as he watched me.
Haruhi kept tripping over his own feet but regained before he pushed me down. "Alright, just look at your partner as you dance." I said and for the split second he looked at me he tripped and took me down with him. "I'm sorry," he said and I smiled, "no harm, I used to do this a lot." I said and he helped me up. The bell rung and my phone rung. I looked at it and fear ran through my veins. I pushed the phone to my ear, "hello?" I asked and I heard the hospital again, "miss Higanbana... your father... I'm sorry." He said.
(Song #1 is Nightingale by Demi Lavoto, #2 is If I die young by the band Perry and #3 is I'll be home by Meghan Trainor
