I just want to protect you || muke fanfiction

3. bruises and scars

Michael POV.
*trigger warning*

I wake up and look beside me, the place beside me is empty and there is a note on the pillow
good morning Mikey, I am making breakfast if you see this. I'll be upstairs soon.☺

I smile and try too move, but when I move I feel pain everywhere. I bite my lip to keep me from crying when I hear footsteps coming from the stairs.

"Good morning Mikey, how are you feeling?" Luke says while he is holding breakfast and walking to me with a smile on his face.

"Good morning Lukey I'm fine" and I smile back.

"Now come sit up I made you pancakes and bacon." Luke says while he gives me a plate with the food.

I try to sit up again, I bit my lip and push me up and take the plate from Luke.

"No you're not." Luke says and looks sad.

"What?" I ask.

"You're not fine. You're hurt I see it Michael, don't lie to me. Let me see it." Luke says, he takes my plate and lifts my shirt a bit up. His mouth opens but he doesn't say anything. His face looks white and he looks like he's about to cry.

"It's okay Luke it'll be gone in a week. I'm fine,  we have to go to school we should get dressed come on." I say and try to act as normal as I could.

"No stop it! You're not going to school, you're staying here. I'll text your mom that you're going to stay over at my place after school and you're going to rest. Michael I don't ever want to see you like this again." Luke says, he whispers the last sentence and a tear is rolling down his cheek.

"I.. I'm going to get you a towel so you can shower, maybe it'll help with the pain. And I'm sorry if I sounded angry, I'm not I just don't want to see you hurt.  Luke says with a softer voice,  and he walks away.

I feel bad, if I just wasn't that stupid they would never bully me. And Luke would never cry because of me.

Luke walks over to me "hey Mikey, do you want me to help with your shirt?"

"Yeah sure" I say and I fake a smile.

He helps me take my shirt of and he says where the bathroom is.

I look in the mirror and see bruises and blood on my skin. It's not that bad. I mean, it's been worse. I just don't want it anymore, I want it the stop. And I absolutely don't want to drag Luke into this.

I feel the hot water on my skin, Luke was right,  it helps a bit with the pain. But I still think it's all my fault. If I just had fought back the first time they hit me, this would never had happened, or if I just acted normal. And Luke would never be sad because of me. I don't deserve him. And it's my fault my father left my mother and me, my parents were happy and in love until they got me. Nick and his friends are right,  everything they said to me is true. I'm nothing.

After ten minutes of showering and thinking those thoughts I feel numb.

I only can think of one thing to do, cutting... I get out of the shower and put the clothes on Luke gave me, sweatpants and a black T-shirt. I Look in the drawers and the only thing I see is a scissor. I grab it and push the cold metal on my skin. I cut a couple times, but I still don't feel anything. It has been two weeks since the last time. I slit the cold metal through my skin again and again and then I drop the scissor. I sit down on the floor and cry, I Look at my arm and it's red because of the blood. I hear Luke call my name

"Mikey are you okay? Can I come in?"

I don't answer.

He opens the door carefully. He looks at me like he expected it.

"It's okay Michael, you're gonna be fine." He says, He doesn't even looks shocked or anything, just a little hurt.

"Come here I'll clean it up." He says and pulls me into a hug. I'm still numb and stare at the wall, the only thing I feel is guilt and disgust towards myself.

Luke carefully cleans my wrists and puts bandages on them.

"I can't lose you Mikey, maybe it sounds weird because I just met you but I care about you, a lot. You didn't do anything wrong and I will help you. Okay Mikey?" He says with tears in his eyes.

I just look at him and cry, He says he cares about me, but nobody except for my mother ever cared about me. Maybe he just says it to make me feel better so I'll leave and never wants to speak me again. 

He pulls me into a hug again. But this one feels different, I don't know what the feeling is but it feels good.

"Go,  lay down for a minute. I'll clean it up." Luke says and tries to smile a bit

"T...Thank you,  I..I'm sorry." I say with a shaky voice while I look at the ground.

"It's okay,  now go I'll be there in a minute." He says and I walk to his room.

After a couple minutes Luke came over to me.

"You like pizza?" He asks.

"Yeah." I say.

"Which pizza do you want,  I'm gonna order one." He asks.

"I like pepperoni, but how late is it? " I ask.

"Okay and uhh about five pm."
He says and grabs his phone to order the pizza. He sits down next to me.

"Do you wanna watch a movie?" He asks.

"Uhh Yeah sure, which?" I ask him.

"Uhh... I have Mean Girls.." he says.

"Yeah I like that movie." Say and try to smile.

He puts the movie on and lays back next to me.

I don't know what it is but I kinda feel save when I'm with Luke. But in my head I know that he could never stay with me after what he saw of me. 

The bell rings, Luke gets up and pauses the movie. When he comes back he has a pizza. He lays back and we eat the pizza and watch the movie.

Sorry for this sad chapter. I hope you liked it.

Xxxx -L.