their golden girl

am i getting adopted?

pov y/n

i wake up again in this hellhole. i have no idea why i´m still here, i mean i could have easily run away.
being adopted is no choice, no one wants an 16 year old girl. that is way to old for some people.

i get out of bed and grab some clothes. i grab an white dress and put an brown corset over it. my favourite outfit.
i walk to the bathroom and put on some eyeliner and some black lipstick.
today there are gonna be people adopting again and i dont want to be adopted. so that´s why i have black lipstick.

i walk to the eating room and sit down. i´m one of the last ones.
then the headmasteres begins with her speach. just some of our chores and about the adopting family. not important for me.
after 10 minutes she´s finally done.
we get to finally eat. jezus that woman can talk for long.

suddenly a ginger family walks in. everyone looks at them, probably the family who´s gonna adopt someone. i see five boys and one girl. i kinda think they´re gonna go for a girl around her age so she won´t be lonely. and probably a ginger.
i look back at my food, i just know they won´t go for me.  they walk to the front and i look at them. i can see that there´s an twin, boys. they look around my age. but that´s not important. they won´t choose me anyway.

i stand up. all eyes on me. great, even the gingers look at me. i ignore all the eyes on me while i walk back to my room. i lay down on bed and start to stare at the ceilling, i don´t have anything else to do.
the door opens, i look up. the headmasteres is standing there ¨y/n¨ she begins. ¨they want to see you¨ she says while looking me up and down. probably the outfit, she doesn´t like it when i dress up like this.

i stand up and follow her to her office. please just let this be an mistake. i don´t want to be in an family with mostly boys. the fact disgusts me.

i walk in the office, thank god, only the parents are there.

¨sit down¨ the headmasteres commands. i immediatly do as she says. i know what happens when you don´t do as she says.

¨hello dear, my name is molly and this is my husband arthur¨ she says with one of the nicest voices i´ve ever heard. her husband gives me an little smile and i just stare at him. hopefully they won´t adopt me.
¨i´m y/n¨ i spit in their face.
they look shocked and i grin. step one is done succesfully.

¨they want to adopt you¨ the headmasteres says. i can just hear she has an disgusted look on her face. she always says that no one wants me.
i look at her and then back to molly and arthur. they all look at me. ¨NO¨ i scream.
i stand up and open the door. there i see a few gingers listening to the conversation. i give them a bitchy look and walk outside like the bad bitch i am. i look around, looking for my secret way that leads to the roof.
i run to the barn with all the hay in it. (yes we have that in this orphanage) i walk to the ladder and climb to the top. through that i climb to the roof.

i sit down and look at the sky. i look down and see some gingers walking. i laugh, you see them looking everywhere for me.

someone sits beside me. it scared the shit out of me, i almost fell but could grab the roof just in time. i look beside me and see suzie sitting there.

¨i know you don´t wanna get adopted¨ she begins ¨but you just gotta accept it¨

i look at her. she has blond hair and it falls right above her shoulder. she has been adopted multiple times, but no one wanted her.
i let her words sink in and just think about it.

what if she´s right? i just need to accept the fact someone wants me. no need to be scared, right? i don´t know, if you think about it it´s scary.
you know what? i´m not going to be an coward and just go with them. i climb down the ladder and leave the barn... probably for the last time. i walk to the office and already regret it. i knock, knock knock knock. ¨yes¨ i hear coming from the room. i open the door and see arhtur and molly sitting there.
they look at me, this is getting awkward.
¨sit down¨ she says annoyed. i sit down.

¨everything has been done so if you grab your stuff they will take you home¨ she says and points to the door. i get the hint and walk to my room. i don´t have much stuff so grabbing my stuff doesn´t take long.
i say goodbye to suzie and walk outside. suzie is the only friend i have here, i´m really gonna miss her.