Somber

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Somber is usually thought of as sadness but it's also thought of as the shadow of grief.

October 20th

HARRY STYLES

The cool October breeze blows through my long hair as I walk through the doors of that hell whole. I've been outside a lot but something about freedom makes everything smell so much better.

"Styles...you look like shit man" I hear a voice say while I'm walking through the gate, I look over at him, leaning against his black 1989 Monte Carlo.

"Yea well what do expect from someone just getting out of prison?" I state. Walking up to him, I throw my bag in the car through the open window on the passenger side.

I look over at him and he was smirking at me

"what? I was in there for 4 years and it felt like forever, I'm finally out so can we please get the fuck going?" grabbing the handle and opening the car door

"I missed ya man" he says walking to the drivers side and getting in.

"Missed you too Liam." I mumbled and he looks at me

"Sorry I didn't hear you, you what?" He's tapping his ear like he had trouble hearing. "Cmon don't keep me waiting we have places to be."

"I missed you too"

"Aw you don't have to be all soft buddy" he teases, i wack him on the arm "ow be gentle" he says rubbing his arm.

"Shut up and start the car I wanna leave this place" I lean back grabbing a hold of the seat belt and buckle myself in

"Alright, alright let's go, The guys will be heading there soon"

It's been a year. A whole fucking year since she left me. It's her fault I was arrested, I could of started college, I could of had a normal life if it wasn't for her. She came into my life when I needed someone, I was so broken and I thought she was going to be the one to fix me but she left and the last part of me that was still together shattered. There's no fixing me now. The damage is done and I have to live with that.

If I could say one thing to her it would be fuck you, fuck you for making me feel the way I did for you, for me to trust you the way I've never trusted anyone before. just for you to stab me in the back and leave me lying in the dirt. You Broke Me. Fuck you for leaving me. Thing is, I could never say it. One look at her and I'd forget all the pain she caused me, I'd forgive her for everything, that's the kind of hold she still has on me.

Liam was flying down the highway, zooming past all the old folks in their cars probably on the way to the grocery store. This town is full of oldies, the only place that has young people are the three schools located in the centre of this place. a lot of them either lives with their grandparents or they live alone. There's a neighbourhood just filled with young adults, party's every weekend so no old people want to live there.

I used to live with my grandma but she passed away when I was in my second last year of high school it was hard to deal with and I didn't want to move back to London with my mom and her new husband so Liam and his grandparents had me stay with them. At the of end of senior year Liam and I moved into one of the houses on Spillway Drive better known as Party street with a few guys from school, Zayn and Niall.

"So....you wanna talk about it?" He asks hesitatingly

"No."

"Ok."

He reaches over and turns on the radio, Boulevard of broken dreams starts playing through the speakers. Still having a 20 minute drive left ahead of us I close my eyes and lean my head against the seat, listening to the song.

"I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me, and I walk alone"

The realization just hit me, I'm going home. It's only been a year but for me it feels like a life time. I spent a year sitting in a cell counting down the days until I was finally free, now I'm heading back to the place where it all started.

"My shadows are the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk alone"

The radio goes quiet and Liam speaks up

"Oh I've been meaning to tell you, a friend of Zayn's started hanging out with us a while ago, she's pretty cool so you'll probably get along with her" i look over at him eyeing him with slight judgment.

Since when did he let girls hangout with them. He hated when I brought her over. Now Zayn brings some chick and he's just fine with it?

"Her name is Ashlyn but everyone just calls her Ash"He looks over at me, eyeing me cause I haven't said anything yet. 

"Mm..." I turn my head to face the window before speaking " so Annabelle is welcomed with open arms but she wasn't?"

I hear him sigh then the radio is cranked back up again.

"Read between the lines
What's fucked up, and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive, and I walk alone"

He never liked her. None of them did. They all said she was bad for me, yet she was the only one saving me. I felt so alive when I was with her. She saved me when I was at my lowest. She wasn't an angel but she was something. She was mine. Now she's gone. Now they are trying to replace her with Annabelle.

Liam turns down a street that leads to our neighbourhood and I tense up a little bit. Things have obviously changed since I've been gone, I'm not sure if I'm ready for it.

"Niall said he was picking up pizza and shit so he should be on his way back soon and I think everyone else is coming at 6."

That calmed my nerves a bit but then he spoke up again

" we got a new roommate by the way, since you were gone we ran into some money troubles cause it was only the 3 of us, only me and Zayn were working at the time, we needed money so we got another roommate"

I had a feeling they would. Niall was fired cause of the situation that happened last year, he was there when everything went down, the police let him go when I told them he was hanging out with us before everything happened. Which wasn't totally true.

"we gave him the basement" he continues "because we didn't want to give him your room cause well..it's yours. His names Jackson. He can be a real prick sometimes but he's chill."

He pulls into the driveway of our 2 story home, i look around and nothing has really changed other then the walkway actually having stones place down and not being just gravel.

I'm we get out of the car, I grab my bag out out of the backseat and walk up the pathway leading to the door.

Liam unlocks the door and goes inside me following behind him, I stand in the door way letting the wood stove smell fill my nose. Home.

"Welcome home"

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I know it's probably rlly confusing rn but I promise it will make more sense the more this story unravels