"Honey, I told you a million times no! " I rolled my eye's "Mom! please you never listen!" I'm tired of fighting with her on this. Not paying attention I crossed the street, I heard the sound of tires squealing and I felt something ram in to me, h...
The radio blared, loud enough that No one would hear me, I was in my bathroom surrounded by candles and warm water and bubbles piled high. I cried out my eye's. Because of him. I just sat there crying, for the past few days I've been ignoring him and pretending that everything is fine. I could really use some advise...but from who? I touched the bubbles swirling them around. My eyes hurt so much from crying so long, I sank down in the water more It hurts so much. My heart hurt like I've never felt before, I should have never expected anything more from him, what would have happened if we kissed? I pushed my head under the water, holding my breath Fleetwood mac singing my feels muffled from under the water. what If I just stayed under? I lifted my head back up gasping for breath and looking in the long mirror only a few feet away from me I was able to see my eyes blue but filled with tears my long hair was soaked.
I took a beep breath, it was shaky but it was something to gain my bearings. I unplugged the bathtub still sitting in the water just watching it be sucked down the drain, his face popped in my head, his smile his touch, those eyes. Tears limitedly poured out again. exactly how long was I gonna feel this way? Why can't I just forget about him? What's wrong with me? The pain in my chest grew, this time sharper than before, I wrapped my arms around my stomach and cried harder, till I started dry heaving. I was soaking butt naked in my bathtub crying my eye's out...I feel like every girls been here before. wrapping a towel around my body I miserably crawled out of my bathtub and dried off. Putting on the clothes I picked out and hung on my door before I had my mental break down in the bath tub.
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Putting my hair up in a messy bun I opened my door My room was a mess, Usually it's so neat, My blinds were drawn, canceling out the world. I shut off my radio in the bathroom. Grabbing my phone off the night stand. (A gift from Alastor.) he's been dropping off gifts ever since that day. A peace offering? I didn't understand what he was doing and it didn't seem like he knew what he was doing either. Food from my favorite Chinese restaurant, a stuffed octopus, A light blue crop top sweater, a soft white blanket, Head phones, a thousand letters of apologies. Each time he knocked at my door I ignored him, I would watch his shadow under the door he'd stand there for a few minuets then leave the present at my door step. I wanted to give in but he hurt me really bad this time. I plugged my headphones in and turned on some good tunes. pushing the volume up all the way.
Crawling up in my bed and pulling the covers over my head and curling into a ball. I wanna die, this hurts. I must have projected my words again because Blair messaged me on my phone:
Bae: What's wrong I can hear your thought's and you sound depressed as shit.
Me: Sorry.
Bae: don't be sorry I'mma bash Al's head in! What he did was bullshit!! I mean he played you like a violin.
Me: not helping...
Bae: Hold on, I'll be up in a minute okay?
Me: Okay.
I lifted the covers off my body sitting up on my bed I scrolled threw demo media to pass the time, a few minuets later soft knock sounded at my door "Come in." Blair opened the door with Two pint sized Ice cream boxes and spoons "Let get too it!" Angel was behind her with a box of tissues.
after three mental breakdowns and a whole two pints of ice cream I felt better...Okay so I just felt numb but it was better then practically oozing liquids onto the floor. "I know what ya need toot's." I raised and eyebrow at Angel "and whats that?" He shared a look with Blair she smiled seeming to already know where he was going with this conversation. "You need to hit the club girl, dance the stress out and find a better, hotter guy to swoon over." I shook my head "I don't know guys...I think I just wanna stay in my bed and cry." Blair punched my stuffed octopus.
"No! you can't let this man child trap you! You need to be free!" She was in her dork mood. I sighed "Fine." Blair raised her hands in the air "Yas!" Angel stood "I'll leave you to get dressed." I grabbed his hand "Can't I just wear a hoodie and sweat pants." He smiled sweetly "You do and I'll murder you." with that he left Blair not too close behind.
