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Heaven? Hell?

   *Warning* may be super duper offensive to religious dudes.

   So I've been doing some hardcore thinking lately, and somehow, I came to wonder about if I would prefer going to hell or cease to exist at all, because hell honestly don't seem so bad after all compared to not existing. What would it feel like? Not existing, I mean. Nothingness? That is creepier than it sounds, if you think about it for a second. Hell, on the other hand, is just burning. Seriously, Jesus? Is that the worst you could think of? (and yes, I know endless burning fire is just a metaphor for something else) Because if that is the case, I would much rather go to hell, knowing that at least there is a heaven and good people who deserve to go there would at least have a good time chilling with angels.

   But then, I thought about how people got into heaven and hell. God is basically threatening everyone that if they don't be a good guy and spread the word of God, we would end up in hell. Like, seriously? The Bible claims that God loved us soooooo much that he gave his only son, which is pretty amazing, if you ask me. But, if we did not have the chance to hear about Jesus or choose to not believe in him, we would end up in hell with eternal suffering? I mean, even if anyone do 80 years of being bad, or so evil that we kill our own parents, they do NOT deserve to spend 80 thousand gazillion years being roasted over and over again in hell.

   I then thought: what if hell was different for each and every one of us? Like God would specifically find our deepest fear and let that be our personal hell? (like in the novel 1984 in room 101) So my punishment would be ceasing to exist but not before I realize that there is no heaven or hell and thinking that all this Christianity thing was a joke before plunging into darkness forever? Wow. That's pretty sad. I hope God won't do that. Because no matter how evil you are, you would not want to hurt someone you love that badly, right?

   So then I thought: maybe there being no supernatural being like Jesus or whatever on Earth would be the ideal solution after all.