it's kinda upsetting to see ppl with like raw talent in smt bc like I want that ya know like I don't have raw talent in anything and I'm not even like one of those ppl who have "no talent" but instead just work super hard for their goals which btw I put "no talent" in quotations bc having motivation is an underrated talent that nobody thinks about and just takes for granted. unlike me who has the motivation of a depressed person and I'm not even depressed I'm just super lazy and I don't wanna work on building skills. BASICALLY I JUST WANNA WRITE A STUPID SIMPLE FANFIC BUT I CANT BC ITS SO UNBELIEVABLY CRINGY BUT THEN I TRY NOT BE CRINGY BUT THEN ALL IT IS IS ME SUMMING UP WHAT HAS ALREADY HAPPENED IN THE CANON STORY LIKE THATS IT NOTHING IS DIFFERENT ALSO WHY CANT I JUST WRITE A CONVERSATION??????? IT SHOULDNT BE THAT DIFFICULT
