GUITAR, ROSES AND KISSES

1. My Ex

Songs for the chapter:
Confetti by Sia
Cry for me by Camille Cabello

I walk into the mall, my mind void. It has been months, months of turmoil. Maybe I was obsessed but it didn't matter. He led me on when he knew he should have broken up with me. When I fell so hard, so hard into the tunnel then he covered me up there and stole all my beautiful jewels. Damn you Jonas.

You might be wondering who is this poet? But don't worry, I'll tell you. I'm Anastasia Radon. Not the element 'Radon', but that's my surname. To be frank, I'm a mess. I would never love again because of a guy named Jonas.

I met him a year ago, he was going to Saint Patrick High school (SPHS). It was a boarding school and the most popular in Washington DC. It was an all boy school and I met him during an intersport competition between my school, Aiden High School (AHS).

At that time, I had a crush on Davin Gregory. He was just your typical high school crush. So, when I was to do the long jump for our school, I was so happy. I had dressed up like a high school cheerleader, but the problem was looking for Davin. My friend Felicia accompanied me. Then I met Jonas. He was with his friends and they were all pervert. When I walked through the hallway, I met with a good whistle and thorough flirting that it was hard for me to get away and then he helped me out. I was grateful and I left. And like as if fate was on my side, I kept on seeing him and each time, he would walk up to me and strike a conversation which always ended up with me hitting the hell out of me after he would tease me and then we clicked and became friends.

Within few days, I knew him more than anything or at least I thought I knew him. Later on, he found out I liked Davin and he helped me in meeting him, but I was disappointed when I found out that he was not the guy I thought he was. He was a big pervert and all he did was hump and dump. I had been so shameless that I cried in front of Jones. Jones calmed me down and then we were just friends. We hanged out more during the weekend when he could get out of boarding school.

During the holiday we were inseparable and then I fell in love with him. He loved me too and it was obvious. Jones was an amazing guy with his thick black hair and pretty lips. He was hella funny too. I had thought it was impossible for me to fall in love with him, but I was wrong because I fell in him more when I learned he could play guitar. I could sing, he could play the guitar. We were like a match made from heaven. On the day when he was to return back to boarding school, we had stayed up late on top of the mountain as we were wrapped in each other arms, kissing and cuddling. We watched until the sun rose and then we kissed each other goodbye till weekend.

Each day, Jones sent me a letter on the school phone. It was always sweet and amazing. And every weekend we would spend it together, going on multiple dates and headboard banging on the bed that's if you get what I mean. My life was taking a good shape until something happened. Jones would write me only once in school days. He would complain school was tedious anytime we met up during the weekend and we would only see on Friday. After, till the next week. I could relate with him especially since he was in the school football team and not just that, he was the captain.

All of a sudden, I could feel him slipped away without an explanation. He was always having a class or an exam, or a test or a game, or a family meeting. He was always on emergency case that it drive me crazy. I missed him a lot. I was slowly losing myself and I needed a reassurance. I called Jones, and he picked the phone up. I don't know what was wrong, but he promised to meet me up at our usual restaurant. I went there and sat for straight an hour. Jones texted me that he would be late so I waited a bit more. After, I decided to call him. His phone rang, and he picked it up. I asked where he was and he said he was doing a pratical. Immediately, I felt someone tap me. It was Gloria. She pointed to a direction mad my eyes followed. There, I saw Jones, he was on the escalator. His hand wrapped around a dark haired girl. He was smiling at her while he lied and stood me up. I felt my heart shatter into tiny pieces.

"Madam, what will you like to get?", The voice of the sales lady jolted me out of trance. Obviously I had been standing and staring at nothing.

"A black Converse", I say and she leads me down the mall to the shoe section. I look around and I found an eye catching Converse. I pick it up and payed for it. I step out of the mall, still bundled up in my coat. The weather was extremely cold and snow was everywhere. That's why I hated the beginning of the year. It was always cold. A car drive down the parking lot, and for some reason, I stared at the car.

A girl with dark hair came down. He hair covered in a head warmer and a matching muffler wrapped around her neck. After, a guy came down and my heart stopped. Why? Because I knew who it was, I would never forget this person. It was the one and only Jones.

I quickly looked away and started walking fast.

"Anastasia Radon", the voice called and my heart froze. I stopped in my track. It was him. Jones Kristal.

I could hear his footsteps near and I could also feel my face warming up with tears threatening to fall. I thought I was over him but unluckily I wasn't. I gather my shit together and turn around, giving him a very fake smile.

"Hey Jones", I manage to pull out the words in a careless manner, pushing my anger, pain and hurt down.

"It's been long Anastasia", he says his accent coming out smoothly and it hurts so much because even though I hated the nickname 'popcorn' he gave me, I still can't help but wish we were in the past.

"Yes Jones, I hope you'll doing fine", I say and I didn't mean it.

"Yes, and you?", he says bringing out his beautiful smile. He looked so happy while I was lying wide awake. He said in this life time he wouldn't get over me,but he was over me.

"I'm fine too", I say lying straight through my teeth

"I see", he says looking at me from head to toe that I wanted to curl up on my bed and watch Jordan Fisher

"Well.....", He starts then he stops when the dark haired girl walk up to him and interwine her hand with his. It was clear that the girl didn't do it for show off, but she truly needed the touch because she was turning pink from standing in the snow

"Hmm... Gazelle, meet Anastasia, My ex and Anastasia meet Gazelle my girlfriend", he says looking down at Gazelle his eyes glowing brightly. The girl smiled showing her pearl teeth.

"Hey, I'm Gazelle Timberlake", she says in a small light voice stretching her hands out. I stretch my hands out and she shakes it.

"Anastasia Radon", I say and she smiles

"Radon as in the element", she says and I nod.

"He told me about you", she says referring to her boyfriend and then I couldn't hold it in any longer. I pull out a black book and handed it to him.

"It's nice to see you Gazelle and Jones", I say my back facing them and walking away. Then I stop. Maybe I was expecting him to to hold me back like the way he did at the bar down town when wouldn't let me walk out on him, but he didn't so I did said what I always wanted to say.

"I hope I never see you again. Goodbye", I say and finally walk off. Maybe I wanted him to cry for me. Even if he didn't maybe he should have to lie for me.

Tears stream down my eyes as I walk through the side way. I try to avoid hitting people. My vision become blurry and come face to face with a wall. And I land on the floor. I immediately start to laugh and I know people think I'm crazy but I don't care. I stop laughing and stay like that for some minutes. I clean my eyes and I immediately fall down to the floor when someone around me starts laughing too.