INKED || JUNGKOOK FF

Unidentified Love

We grab our coffee to go, because she has something urgent to do at her apartment. She suggests me to just drop her off rather than waiting for her to do her stuff. Yet I am convincing her that I am okay by just starring at the wall doing nothing, which breaks her laughter.

Going up to her unit is not as complicated as mine, she feels more relax bringing me up together along with her as if no one will recognize anything. She is picking up her laptop on the kitchen table and guide me along to sit on the couch

"I am so sorry Kook, I sabotage the time today. Do you want something before I immerse myself into the work for the next hour? I have frozen pizza, I can heat it up for us",  her big eyes are wistful, pursing her lips.

"It's okay, Y/N.. I can watch something on my phone. Just tell me where the pizza is, I am pretty good at using microwave", I said tugging her hair behind her ears

I am watching her as her attention is full on her work, once in a while she sips her melting iced latte and leaning on me. 

Once in a while I got up fomr my seat, looking for fresh air at the balcony. Heating up some pizza, chugging down the rest of the coffee then for the next hour I am starting to get bored.

 I cling onto her and she realizes it quickly, rubbing my hair gently "Such a baby. Yes Kook, I am nearly finish.. Do you want to watch movie after this? Or do you have somewhere to go?"

"No no no. I could stay! I will look out for a movie then. And should we order take out? Do you want jajjangmyeon and tangsuyuk? I know a good one!"

She nods affirmingly.

Being with her is a nice feeling, she brings me somehow..comfort. Even enjoying the comfortable silence when she is busy. Tracing her side profile and for God's sake, she is pretty. She pulls up her sleeve and her attractive mini tattoos are visible.

How can be someone this damn charming, soulful and warm? My sensitive sense of  smells inhales her sweet yet musky scents, drawing me in to snuggle myself onto her.

Another 45 minutes passes by and she is finished, closing down the laptop in front of her. She asked the concierge to drop our food in front of the apartment door.

"Kookie, should we skip the movie? And let's have a relax time while getting to know each other" she smiles warmly

"Sounds great! I have been wanting to tell you all my silly stories! There was one time when Jimin and I were fighting like mental over some jokes"

Her laughter is contagious, "You silly dork and  I can totally  imagine you'd be doing some random youtube tricks and brags about it. But don't get me wrong, I love silly stories, trust me I got a lot of it too. But I want to know you, Jung Kook.. Like, you you"

My gaze softened, "All right then, just don't fell asleep when I tell you the history of my life.. I think it will be a saga with heaps of plot twists"

"I am a trained listener! So I won't..", she pecks my cheek. We prepare the food and getting ourself comfortable on the couch with blankets on and some lo-fi music from my playlist. The ambience is good and her prescence is even better.

Starting of with my trainee days, the hardships and how I sacrifice my youth days since I was 13 years old, longing for the life like  normal people would do, the carefree stupid younger days. The age when somebody made a lot of mistakes yet they would be something to be remained as a life lesson. 

To make it more relax, she recommends some silly ideas. Ended up  me and her are doing a little contest, who drinks the most beer out of a can in 10 seconds. We pour down the remaining beer into the glass to see whom has more inside. It appears, I have more. So the one loses got to tell their stories further.

"Sorry again Kookie, you gotta chug that down a bit faster. Okay,  I will ask you some questions again.  How about your love journey then? Other than having millions of girlfriends, I reckon", she teases me pointing at my Army tattoo.

I chuckled.  Caressing  her arms softly with my fingers, "Love journey? I've been in that uncertain relationship before. I can't confirm it was a relationship though, I think for that person it was purely platonic"

"So the other person didn't love you back? Kook, if you are uncomfortable telling the story, it's okay"

I shake my head. My eyes are wandering up to the ceiling, trying to recall the memories, "It was very early in my young age. I think when I was 16? or 17.. I never knew I'd grow so much attentiveness towards this person. We have been so close as friends, that person treated me somehow like a younger brother but, I might not thought of it that way. Each time we spent time together, my feelings grew fonder towards this person. One day, when we went out to see the first snow on that year, this person kissed me out of the blue. I thought  that I was going to passed out," I giggled. The memories were rushing in like a fast paced car. 

I sigh loudly and continues, "After that incident, I thought we were going to the next step in our relationship, we hugged, we kissed, we slept together,  I thought that person eventually gave in.  But no. We didn't move forward, this person had so much to consider even the slightest bit, yet I know deep down, the heart wanted to love back"

"Oh God, I am so sorry.. That was hard. This person must have been really special for you, Kook.. Maybe still does? Do you guys make it through somehow?"

I shrugged my shoulder, "Yeah it was. More than 4  years I was holding on for this person. Until at the beginning of this year, I decided  to move on. I declared that if we keep walking on the spot, I can not take it anymore. It would be hurting both of us so much, the more we dragged it out too long. We cried like babies, mostly left unsaid, eventhough we are still facing each other frequently.. Yet we got to take it like an adult, not everything goes like we wanted to"

She rubs my back in circling motion, soothing me. "I know moving on is hard and loving someone who doesn't really love us back or fight for us are tough. But, glad that you are strong until now, Kook.. Especially when you still frequently see each other. I can't imagine"

I am wondering if she curious of who that person is, but I guess I will keep it for myself now.

"You are wise you know, despite of being extremely sassy", I pat her head and grab her waist. Scooting her body between my legs, with her back touching my chest. My lips faintly nibbling her earlobe. I can feel her body shivers and her eyes closed

She chuckled, "Kook, we are just start moving on from our past love..we..."

Moving down to her neck, licking and sucking it slowly cuts her words off. My right hand is roaming under her shirt while the other hand daintly caressing her thigh

"Mmhm.. You make me feel something again, Y/N.. And I want to feel you now.. Look at me and let me kiss your soft lips right there"

With no hesitation, she turns her head facing me and our lips connected. Starting it slow, molding into each others with full of emotions. Suddenly I could re-call the bitter memories of the past. She pulled away, realizing my heavy breathing feeling hefty.

"Let's cuddle.. Let me hug you. Here.." she open up her hands, welcoming me to her warm embraces.

With no hesitation I hug her softly and burried my head on her neck while she softly carressing my hair

"Thank you for consolling me like this, never knew I long such a warm embrace after that hurtful phase of my life", I mumbled

She nods, her hands circling my back "Okay, let's relax.. Sleep here if you want, Kook. I can't promise you a good food tho, since my I haven't done my groceries.."

I chuckled when she is worrying about food right now, "No worries.. let's do groceries tomorrow.."

We ended up watching a rom-com movie and drifted to sleep at her couch. Eventhough my heart aches, re-calling those painful scenes I have sealed since then, but I found warmth with her.