Final Writings

My Song

I remember the torture.

Remember the pain.

I never wanted the sadness to be mine to gain.

I remember the laughs and all the times I've relapsed.

But somehow...
I forgot my name.

I forgot how to smile.
Such a shame.

A pretty little girl going up in flames.

Now the tears are coming,
Blinding all I see.
Man what I'd give,
To see fields of green.

My life.
Yeah that's what i'd give
My life.
To end all the pain.
My life.
Wrapped up in these chains,
And I can't remember everything that I've gained.

All the times I've fought,
All the demons inside.
All the times I've cried,
And seen the angel die.

I'm walking these halls,
Man, all I see,
Are the memory's shared between you and me.

I forgot.
I forgot how it hurts
I want the pain to end
But it only gets worse.

My life.
Yeah that's what I'd give
My life.
I seem like such a curse
My life.
I know I ruin everything so why was I put.

On a beautiful planet,
A beautiful Earth,
All the time in the world,
That's what I wish to reverse.

I wish to replay,
Like my life was a game
And I'm losing

My strength

My health

My everything.

But I keep pressing play
And I keep moving on
I don't even know why
Cause this feels so wrong.

My thoughts.
Have been changed to this song,
My breath.
It keep going on
My life.
How I wish it would stop
But it just keeps moving
And I want it to end.

My pain.
It's all I can see
My blood.
Pouring out of me.
My ears.
Filled with my screams.

Nobody else can hear.
But I know they can see.
So I hide.
As far away as can be.

My family.
I know they love me
My friends.
They just want me to have
My life.

My life.

Forget all the pain
All the torture and shame.
Forget all the times that I've screamed their names.

My life.

Should be filled with joy.

My life.

My brains not a toy.

My life.

I should look to the future and forget all the past.

Cause this is my life.