Final Writings

That Feeling

Do you ever get that feeling,
To run and never look back.
To just let everything go.
To do what you want,
No matter what.
To never sleep,
To never go back
To school
To work
To life.

Yet you also get the feeling,
To never move.
To stay in one room,
Forever and not leave.
To sleep forever,
Or not care if you wake up.

Or maybe the feeling,
That you don't care about anything.
That you don't care about
Your future,
Your life,
You.
But you also care so much,
And freak out when things go bad.

Because I do.
I do every day.
Every hour.
Every minute.
Every second.
And I don't know what to do.
So I shut down.
And I don't care anymore.
Yet I care so much.
So now I'm just done.