Death is Warm; Han Jisung Centric

Awaiting Death

I'M SO SORRY I LEFT THIS HANGING FOR SO LONG YOU GUYS PROBABLY HATE ME OMG IM SORRY

anyways please enjoy

also, it's my spring break up until the 22nd so, I'll try to write more for you guys!

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          The morning air never felt worse. It was so suffocating and stiff. Jisung never meant to break down like that, but it seems that's what everyone in the company thought. Once breakfast was finished, they migrated to the couch where Jisungs episode happened. He was just getting the courage to start explaining his thought process and his overall mood, when Chan got a call. He answered and put it on speaker, but motioned for them to be quiet. Thankfully they did so, because it was JYP himself asking for an explanation for their requested day off, hopefully in person, he said. Dread filled Jisungs body like sand falling in a time measurer that you get from the dentist when you're a kid. Slowly, but surely getting there. 'There' for Jisung was being overwhelmed. Jisung quickly nodded to Chan, and whoever else was looking at him. He didn't know for sure what all he was nodding at, but hopefully he'd figure it out on the way there. He got ready to go into the building with whoever came along. He didn't want to. God, he didn't want to. Why did he have to do that? Do anything? He wishes he could disappear. Just for a few weeks. Maybe then he could have his feelings in check. When Felix poked his head in cutely to check on him, Jisung remembered a few more feelings he needed to get underwraps. Specifically 7 feelings for 7 other, beautiful, amazing, and loveable people.

          Jisung was genuinely, relatively, positively screwed.

          The ride to the company wasn't very long. In fact, it seemed way too short. When he thought that some might want to come along, he only thought maybe 2 of his other members would willingly get up on their, now, day off. He surely did not expect all of them to squeeze in the van and tag along. He didn't want to admit it, but it really calmed him down. He just couldn't stop thinking about JYP's disappointed face, and what if Manager Nim was there too? Who is he joking, of course Manager Nim would be there! How would he be able to tell his whole story if one of the problems were there and criticizing him? Listening for Jisung to slip up and-and what? He's heard of managers abusing their idols, in fact it's more common than it should be. Would manager nim do that? Jisung was scared. So scared. What if JYP kicked him out? Because he caused too many problems? Would Chan let him do it? His members? He thought they were friends, but maybe they actually hated him. They definitely wouldn't be the last, nor the first. He couldn't help but remember the man that hated him first, and most. He made him hate himself, even.

         He was shook out of his thoughts by Minho, who was trying to make him look at him. When Jisung did, Minho did the unthinkable and kissed him. Jisung was shook and embarrassed. I mean, it was only on the cheek, but damn it had Jisung flustered. When Minho realized Jisung was back and not lost in his head, he pulled him out of the car. Minho was laughing, and it loosened Jisung up quickly. He smiled and started giggling too. He giggly asked Minho why he did it, and paid no mind to Minho's arm circling around his waist, or Hyunjin's hand holding his. They walked in the building together, never detaching from each other. Jisung was happy when he was with them. No matter what would happen in that office, he would be okay if he had the boys.

        He hoped.