Rebelgirl you are the queen of my world

Kurt

It's friday morning and the girls and I sit at the table drinking coffee and eating breakfast.
The last two weeks have been pretty busy since we have a gig this saturday.
All I've been doing is practicing and learning for school.

"Maiko, we gotta hurry or we'll miss the bus again."

"Calm down we just need to brush our teeth and then we are good to go."

"You said the same thing yesterday and what happened hm?"

"We missed the bus..."
I mumble with a hint of shame.

"Exactly."

I stand up and put the dishes in the dishwasher.
We race up the stairs to the bathroom, brush our teeth, say good bye to Kozakura and make our way to the busstop.
We're just in time and sit down at our usual seats in the back.

"What happened with you and that Kita guy?    I haven't heard of him in a while."

She scratches her neck in an uncomfortable manner.

"Let me guess. The same thing as always?"

"If you mean that I got bored of him and just straight up ghosted him then yes."

"God! You're such an ass. That poor guy."
I shake my head laughing.

"Hey! No need to be mean! Subject change- what's with you and Suna?"

"Not much. We text now and then but nothing special. He's pretty chill though."

"Is that so?"

"Yes it is."

"He kinda reminds me of you.
Why don't you invite him to the gig?"

"Dunno. Didn't really think about it but I could do that."

The bus stops screeching and we get out.

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I look out of the window waiting for this class to finally be over.
I glance at my phone and see that Maiko texted me.

Maiko:
sup

Me:
not much
bored asf
wbu?

Maiko:
same
do u wanna come to my gig tmrw?

Me:
yes ofc

Maiko:
:)
we'll pick u up at 8
address?

Me:
xxstreet, 7
see you tmrw then

Maiko:
yea see u

I put my phone back in my pocket and smile to myself.
Finally the bell rings and the twins and I walk to volleyball practice together.

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I finish off my eyeliner and check myself in the mirror.
After that I pick up my bass and tune it one last time.

Every time we play on stage I double check everything possible.
You never know what's going to happen or what opportunities you get when you play live.
Maybe there's a good producer or someone important and t h e n I fuck up.
I would cry to be honest.

That's why I always feel extremely anxious before shows but as soon as I start singing I forget everything around me and how I feel.
I never told anyone about the anxiety part though.
It just seems wrong for me to feel like that since I always appear confident and strong.