Fighting For Freedom And Love

Nervous and Scared

Jess and I are sitting in the hospital playing room, where no more than 10 years ago I've met him. His head is on my shoulder while I run my hand through his hair to calm his nerves. His happy and care free emotions now gone.

"I'm scared Angel" he whispered

I kissed his forehead "no need to be. I'm here. Everything will be okay Jess" I hope. I added silently in my head.

About 30 minutes later a man in a doctor uniform approached us

"Jess" he called. The doctor knew Jessie by his mother. They became close since Jessie was so young.

"Hey Rich" Jess said standing up and giving him a hug

"Hello Angel, long time no see. You've grown into a beautiful young lady" Dr. Norman. Well Rich.

"Thank you. How's the wife?" I ask politely

"On her way with our fourth child" he said smiling happily

"Well congrats. How's Jim,Shelly, and Fred?" Asking about his kids

"Well Jimmy he just turned 17, Shelly is 11 and already wanting to date and well I bluntly said no" we both laugh "and well little 7 year old Freddy is well lack of a better name Einstein. He's super smart. Like college level at such a young age" he said proudly

I smiled warmly "well Im happy for you and your family." I said honestly. It bright me to thinking if Johnny and I would ever have kids. Does he want kids? I want kids in doubt about it. He would be such a good father. I mean he's amazing with Zach and...

"Angel" Jess said waving his hand in front of me with an amused smile

"Oh sorry I was just...thinking" I said quietly

"Yeah well no duh. We are going to the room, but I want you to come with me. Do you mind?" He said scratching his neck " I mean you don't have to but..I " I cut him off by taking his hand and walking with Rich

"I told you I will support and stand by you and that's what I'm doing" I said firmly.

He smiled warmly "Thank you Angel it means a lot" he said genuinely

"Well don't get use to it" I said winking.

"Okay, Jess let's see. We went over all the tests and it seems that it has spread" the doctor said. My stomach dropped and Jess's face stayed impassive. I squeezed his hand and he just played with my fingers looking at our hands

"But" our heads shot up "if you get surgery today, which we can do, we will be able to remove the cancer in your leg" he said. I smiled and looked at Jess who looked warily

"There's a risk isn't there?" Jess asked

Rich nodded "there's always a risk with surgery. Your chances of pulling through the surgery with a full recovery is 40%, 40% you can come back with a walking problem meaning you'll be in a wheel chair for the rest of your life and 20%..." He paused and cleared his throat "you won't make it back" and that's when I froze. "But it's only twenty percent and if it was up to my professional opinion i would say yes"

I looked over at Jess who's hand clenched mine tightly and looked back over at Rich "will you please give us a minute?" I asked quietly

"Of course" he said leaving the room

"I'm scared" he mumbles against my shoulder

I ran my hand through his hair trying to calm his nerves "I know Jess me too, but if you don't have the surgery your chances of living is 0." I said softly "I'll be here with you all the way. I won't leave until I know how you are and once I'm allowed I'll be in your room waiting for you to wake up with the boys" I said kissing his forehead