Fighting For Freedom And Love

James Bonds Got Nothing On Me

Tears. I no longer have any.

Smiles. I no longer have one.

Love. I no longer can give it.

Jess. I no longer know whether he has a chance.

The doctor for the past ten hours give us the same bullshit. He's not awake yet.

Yet. Another word I want to slaughter

I was pulled out of my thoughts when I felt a pair of hands gently place on my face. I look up to see Johnny.

"How are you baby?" He said seriously

"I'm fine. My brothers in a hospital bed dying and I can't be next if him or even find out why he's like this." I say harshly and I immediately regretted it when I saw hurt flash through his eyes

I closed my eyes and inhaled deeply and whispered "I'm sorry I didn't meant to have an outburst. I don't mean to be cold and tense all the time it's just hard to see a guy I grew up with and thought as a brother well is my brother now on his death bed and I can't do shit about it" I said more calmly

He smiles tightly "I know baby and I'm here for you"he said sitting into the seat next to putting his arm around my shoulders. I leaned onto his chest and closed my eyes. "Go to sleep, I'll wake you up if anything happens" all I was able to do was nod and as I felt a gentle kiss to my forehead and I was out.

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"Baby" someone whispered "baby wake up" I felt someone shake me.

I groaned "go away" I mumbled I to my pillow.

That was hard

And breathing

I jumped up into a stance

And Johnny looked shocked but amused

"Are you okay?" He asked deciding whether it laugh or not

I immediately calmed down and let out a breathe "sorry. I forgot where I was for a moment there" I said sitting back down

"Don't worry, but the doctor said he will be back in 5 minutes with news , he just had to go check on another patient" he said

All of the tension that was gone came back with 10x more Strength

My family was all on the edge of their chairs and I was standing now while Johnny sat beside me just holding the backs of my legs.

Rich walked in with no expression I can read.

"How have you all been?" He asked

"Skip to the chance Doc my brothers in there" Joe said surprising everyone at his tone. We knew they were friends but he was never like this.

"Well There's good and bad news, you get to choose which to hear first" he said

"Bad. It's better to hear the worst of the situation and have some hope afterwards" I say intently while everyone nodded agreeing with my decision

"Well the bad news is that he might not fully recover and he has a long scar on his thigh down his leg from the surgery." He said and them gave us a little smile "but he is awake and is very healthy. He no longer had the cancer and with the medicine we are giving him, we are almost positive he won't be able to get it again" I sighed in relief and hugged Johnny as he stood up.

"But I would like one person at a time for visiting and all he's been asking for is you Angel" I smiled and ran towards the room while everyone chuckled at me.