What the hell is love?! GxG

Should i move on?

Y/n pov

It's been weeks since ayami had started dating Jiro.

At first, I didn't know if I would like Jiro when I met him. But his really a good guy. He treats ayami like a princess. The first time meeting him, he was really outgoing and friendly.

he doesn't treat me like how other people would when they see me.

I think I'm saying a lot of nice things about him but the thing is! He really is the perfect boyfriend you would ever want.

I can't hate him for taking the place I wanted... if ayami is happy I'm happy...

...

Every since I found out she started dating someone I haven't been clingy to ayami, I'm kept my distance from her but not for her to notice.

When it was Monday, that was the time I saw her again with her boyfriend and they were kissing each other.

It hurts so much!! That I wanted to go home and lock myself forever. But I couldn't do that ...because Ryota, tomiko, and azumi would worry.

I caused them so much trouble...I made them take care for me the whole weekend.

I couldn't caused them to do so much for me anymore. So I decided to shrug it off and not think about it and act normal.

Acting normal after seeing that was so hard. All day I kept my headphones on. Not listening to the teacher or anyone that was talking to me.

When school ended. I told Ryota I was going home.

He knew I was still bothered by it and just gave me space.

I tried to act normal when I was around ayami and just wave to her and talk to her normally. She knew something was wrong since I haven't been myself to her. But she just shrugged it off.

Even thought I'm hurting inside I keep a happy and composed face on the outside.

I no longer can handle the pain... it feels like my heart is going to tear apart just seeing them act all lovey-dovey. When we're around.

When it happens. I put on my headphones and blast the musics with my eyes close. Trying to think of something.

Weeks had gone by and every week the group would go out. They would go to the beach, mountains, the mall etc.. I would go when I want but I mostly say no and use the studying as an excused

But what I do at home is just increase my workout routine and even learned martial arts during those weeks.

I can't anymore. All
Those weeks I compressed my feeling away. I talked to Ryota, tomiko and azumi if I should just accept it and move on.

All of them said I should move on. They hated seeing me all depressed and faking my happiness around them.

They hated that I was no longer my old self. They wanted to see ME again. The playful and cheerful kid they knew. Not the depressed, sad, dark kid they see now.

All I could do was nod at their response. Those weeks I've been thinking about it.

I decided to bottle my feeling for ayami and lock it away in my heart.