people don't realize how much i truly care until one day i realize they aren't worth it the same way anymore and i pull back. and then they realize all the times i texted first that they should have tried too. or all the times i listened to them, that they could have listened too. all those times i said something and it went unheard, their life too important for them to understand that people grow differently, and some things that are easy for them are very difficult for me. maybe i have a lot of mistakes i don't talk about like they do. because opening up to someone and then watching them walk away is a hard burden and i don't think i would ever be ready to carry myself afterwards.
