Fallen Hearts (boys love series 1)

prologue

Rhianne Hermione Letria

I smiled while looking at my cringy surprise for him, it's our 3rd anniversary. I didn't expect we'd come this far, 1 year more and we will graduate together.

Having a long distance relationship is one of the hardest challenges we've been through but he always make me feel that we aren't that far, through video calls, and weekend dates.

We were fine.

before...

I prepared balloons, party strings, lights, and such. It was all navy blue and white themed, it's his favorite color. Even the roses, it was handmade blue. He always surprises me on our anniversary but today, I want to try something new.

Flashback.

"Happiest 2nd anniversary hon" he kissed my forehead under the thousand stars and the city of lights below us.

I could never find any man, other than him.

I would never love someone as I did to him.

He was always been there for me on my toughest fight.

It's almost 10pm, Hindi ko alam kung nakalimutan niya ba o sadyang busy lang siya magsimula kaninang umaga wala pa rin akong natatanggap na text na kahit ano sakanya, wala siyang paramdam for straight one week. But I didn't mind since I understand him, we're already in third year college, we have our own responsibilities, I can't be selfish and ask for his attention all the time. He is taking medicine, and I am taking BS Management.

I took the cake from the fridge, I baked it myself, it's my first time, so I'm not that confident but I know he'll like it anyway.

He loves everything about me.

I smiled.

Happy 3rd Anniversary Soulmate.

Nang marinig ko ang paggalaw ng door knob, mabilis kong pinatay ang mga ilaw at sinindihan ang cake.

I hid myself on the divider.

I spyed at him as he entered the room, he looked like a mess, he thrown himself in the couch, I waited a couple of minutes before I went out.

I was about to go out when I heard him sobbed.

I stopped.

It hurts.

Seeing him crying, without me beside him.

God knows how much I love him, seeing him breaking down, is one of my weakness.

All my senses were awaken when he spoke.

"I'm sorry Rhianne, I'm sorry, I'm r-really really s-sorry"

Why is he saying sorry? Dahil ba nakalimutan niya ang anniversary namin? But it was fine. 

I was about to comfort him, when I heard him spoke again.

"I fell out of love, I'm s-sorry..."

I felt weak, my knees are shaking. It felt like my knees turned into a jelly.

Pati ang mga kamay ko ay nanlambot, kaya't nahulog ko ang cake.

I caught his attention but I didn't care anymore, my tears rolled down my cheeks as my knees touched the ground, I covered my mouth to prevent making noise.

It hurts.

It fucking hurts.

"Rhianne! fck." He immediately opened the lights.

Ngunit bago niya ako daluhan ay napatingin pa ito sa mga hinanda ko pati na rin sa cake na nahulog sa sahig.

"fuck" he cursed.

I didn't wanna look at him, I cried my heart out, I felt weak.

I don't have the strength to talk to him.

He held my hand.

"rhianne..."

He called my name, his husky voice.

I closed my eyes, why?? Why hon why?? I asked on my head.

"hon..." He called once again as he reach for my face.

My senses went back on me.

Mabilis kong tinabig ang kanyang kamay atsaka tinakpan ang mukha ko ng mga palad ko.

Everything flashed back on me, the days we were together, we were happy, the days we both fought, the challenges we conquered together, the memories we made together, all of it.

What did I do, that made his love fade away in a blink of an eye.

He sat beside me, and we remained silent.

Parehas naming piknakikiramdaman ang paligid, I can't stop my tears from falling.

Para itong may sariling gripo, na hindi ko mapigilan sa pagagos.

I thought we were perfect, I thought he was my soulmate, I thought he was already my man, but it was all in my head.

I can never change the destiny.

Lumipas ang isang oras at mabilis kong pinunasan ang mga luhang patuloy pa ring umaagos, I immediately stood up.

Kinuha ko ang handbag ko sa couch at saka naglakad papunta sa pinto, ngunit bago ko pa mahawakan ang door knob naramdaman ko ang yakap niya sa likod ko.

"I'm sorry rhianne, I'm really really sorry, I tried. I swear I tried, God knows how much I really loved you but fuck, suddenly it all faded away"

Parang tinutusok ng paulit ulit ang puso ko sa mga katagang binibitawan niya.

Can't he just stop and let me go.

"rhianne I'm really really sorry" he continued, I felt his tears on my shoulders.

please stop crying, You know how much it hurts hon.

"Let me go" inipun ko ang natitirang lakas ng loob ko.

He shooked his head.

I looked up, thinking I can stop my tears, but it just won't.

"You fell out of love right?" I asked

It took a couple of minutes before he responded.

"I'm sor-" before he finishes his words, I cut him off.

"THEN LET ME GO!, WALA NA AKONG LAKAS PA PARA SUMBATAN KA FIGHT, SO PLEASE JUST LET ME GO!" I can't control my tears it just won't stop.

He remained silent for a couple of minutes.

At ang kinakatakutan ko sa lahat na mangyari ay nangyari na nga.

Finally.

After 3 years of my imaginative love story, he let me go...