(Sid to the side - ┐(￣ヮ￣)┌)
We lay on the bed , I'm in his white shirt.
And he's all bare in briefs.
We pass the blunt back and fourth.
"Alex Always pushed me so hard to go all the way , it was always so lustful when we kissed it was never passionate of affectionate pure Im-Gonna-Fuck-You Kisses."
I say while signing.
"Who the fuck is Alex?"
He says while passing the substance back.
"Ex."
I say while smoking the weed.
"Promise me something. "
He says while shifting to look at
Me.
"What is it?"
I say while brushing my leg against his.
"If you ever want out tell me , dont Fuccing cheat. Don't you dare cheat , I swear to god it'll tear me apart please just say you want out."
He says while staying at me intently with glassy eyes.
"I won't ever want out , from the first time I saw your damaged soul standing on the porch lighting that fag , I knew I had strong emotions towards you , I just couldn't decide if they were bad or good."
I say while closing our gap and kissing him.
A silence takes over, a comfortable one.
"When my mum killed herself , my dad sold off our house and moved me to who knows where , I was so pissed at him I swore to god it was his fault , but it's mines I couldn't even tell , my own mum killed herself right under my nose. "
I stare at him.
He stares back.
"I hated the sympathy , the I'm so sorry , she was a great lady , she loved you guys so much. I couldn't stand it I lashed out at everyone , including my dad he couldn't even look me in the eyes , he just avoided me or pretended nothing had ever happened , I wanted answers I wanted to confront him about everything but he was never ready to talk. He just grew distant and cold and then I met Charlotte , I didn't like her , it wasn't because he was moving on again, there was just something off about her.."
I stare at him while he stares back at me.
"When I was eight , I had a big happy family my dad didn't drink and my mum well she everything you could ask for and then some , we had dinner and I really wanted ice cream she says she'd be right back. I waited eagerly for her arrival but minutes turned into hours and she still want here , the cops came and informed us she'd been hit by a drunk driver , she died on impact."
We stare at each other.
He smiles a sad smile , it doesn't quite reach his eyes and we fall auto in each others embrace.
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I wake up tangled in there white sheets on the bed , I start to panic.
I let him take my virginity and he takes off.
