NAM DEORUM

Chapter 8: you knocked on my heart

Samya came out of her room after two hours deciding to eat something because she wasn't feeling well since everything that she saw last night. She was sitting on the countertop eating her breakfast when Alina and Haris exited their rooms ready to leave for their work. They both stared at Samya in surprise because she barely took a day off. "You alright honey? Why didn't you leave for work yet" Haris asked reaching out in the fridge for orange juice. "I don't feel like going today" Samya said monotonously avoiding his gaze. "Are you sure, look at your dark circles are you having nightmares again?" Alina asked in a worried tone. "No guys I am fine please can you both just not" Samya said a bit annoyed. "Okay okay then we will both just leave? Or do you want us to stay?" They both asked. "No guys hell no, no one is getting a day off because of me I am fine I just didn't get enough sleep last night because I was watching shows on my phone that's it" she said trying her best to convince them. "Okay okay then we will both leave" they all smiled and hugged each other and that's when Samya plopped down on her couch eating her breakfast and watching TV trying to distract herself from last night's nightmare.

Abraxas' wolf was restless the entire night and although he couldn't sense Samya's emotions from so far away he still didn't feel right. His wolf really wanted him to go check up on her but he didn't thinking that he has to take things slow or else Samya night distance herself thinking he's too clingy. He straight up went to the cafe excited to see his mate but was disappointed not being able to catch her scent. When he entered the cafe Samya was nowhere to be found. He called Barak and asked about her to which he said that she called and said she isn't going to come today because she wasn't feeling well. Abraxas got extremely worried and hurriedly ran out of the cafe, sitting in his car he sped up to her apartment. Why wouldn't she call me if she doesn't feel well. Did she go see a doctor, I highly doubt that. He reached her apartment and rang her doorbell. The door opened and there stood a groggy looking Samya, who was shocked to see Abraxas she had dark circles under her eyes and looked extremely pale. "Hey love are you alright" he stepped in and hugged Samya stroking her hair. "Yeah- I just didn't get enough sleep last night. What are you doing here?" She asked stepping away from him. Abraxas frowned at her feeling that something was definitely off. "I went to the cafe and you weren't there so I asked Ba- I mean your manager and he said you took the day off". She nodded at him and went inside her room lying down on the bed having no energy to talk further"Abraxas sat on his knees besides the bed where she was lying down. "My soul what's wrong why are you so sad, what happened? Did I do something? Was I being too forward? Did I do something to offend you? Whatever it is I apologize my life but tell me what's wrong" he asked stroking her cheek with his thumb. Samya's eyes watered at this. He didn't even do something it's me it's not you. I don't want to destroy you. She internally screamed. She hated being like this but she didn't want to hurt Abraxas and she believed that once Abraxas would know about her past he would leave her right away after all who would want a slut like her. She thought. "Hey love my love what's wrong please tell me love why are you crying" his heart ached like physically ached at Samya's tears and the thought of him being the reason made him hate himself. Adonis whimpered looking at his mate's tears. Samya sat down looking towards her lap letting silent tears fall. Abraxas sat besides her "my love my life please tell me what's wrong. Let me fix it. Who hurt you please tell me and I'll make them pay for it. But please don't cry my life" he said hugging her his voice laced with worry. The moment he hugged her she broke down. She started crying loudly into his arms. "Why are you like this? Why are you so sweet to me I don't even deserve such a good man like you" she asked him. "Shh shh shh stop crying my love please it breaks my heart to see your tears please look at me look into my eyes" Abraxas said cupping her face and searching for her eyes. As soon as their eyes met Samya felt calm. "Shhh shhh just like this please stop crying." He said looking into her eyes. "Yes that's my good girl. See that's it" he said when Samya finally stopped crying. "Now listen to me listen to each and every word of mine carefully." He brought Samya closer through her keeping his hand firmly on her waist. "You are the most pure and divine creature the nature could ever have created. One word from you and I could make the cosmos prostate in front of you. I don't believe in Angels and fairies but I am sure if they ever existed they would never be half as beautiful as you." Samya couldn't help but feel at peace due to his words. They made her so happy so comfortable. "I could make and wear an amulet of your name. You know there is nothing else that I want anymore ever since I have found you. You my love have taken over my soul and I want to keep on whirling in this entire universe from happiness. I could myself prostate in from of you worship you just to see one smile of yours. Our fate is decided my love and you are destined to be mine. And these existing differences between us would fade away soon because they are just temporary. Even if you give me nothing but pain I'll still be the happiest man alive because even the pain from you would be divinity for me." He finished and leaned in their lips inches apart and it was Samya that closed the difference. The moment their lips met it was as if the entire universe halted. Butterflies erupted in Samya's stomach as electrifying sparks were sent in their entire bodies. In that moment both of them felt complete. Their lips mounded perfectly together and moved slowly. The kiss was slow and sweet filled with love and compassion. Abraxas bit her lower lip asking for permission to enter her mouth which she granted happily. Their tongues danced together as Abraxas' fought for dominance which he got at the end. When they were both out of their breathe they parted from each other. Abraxas rested his forehead on Samya's and she said "that was.." "amazing" Abraxas finished for her. "You have no idea how much I have craved for this moment." He said again kissing her on her forehead to which she blushed. "You are the most incredible being I have ever met my love please never doubt yourself. You deserve everything. On your one command I can give my life away." Abraxas said pecking her on lips again. "You make me so happy Abraxas. I am so comfortable around you that I am scared. You make me so joyous that I want nothing but to be around you all the time but I am so so fearful that someone will take you away from me, that someone would hurt you because of me. I don't want to lose you. Not you never you" Samya said tears filling up her eyes once again. "Hey nam deorum my dream my angel no one can steal you away from me, I won't let anyone do anything to you or me. I am not going anywhere love. I have no where else to go. You are my home" he said rubbing their noses together lightly. "Come on you should get some sleep" Abraxas said getting up and tugging Samya in, touching her so carefully as if she was a brittle piece of paper that would break apart at the slightest of touch. He kissed her on her forehead and just when he was about to leave the room Samya held his hand still lying down. "Stay by my side please" she said practically begging him with her eyes. Abraxas sensed her fear and knew something in her sleep must have bothered her a lot. She was scared that she would again have a nightmare, sleep paralysis and those disgusting hallucinations. "Sure my baby". He lied down besides her. Samya turned her head towards him smiling at him. Abraxas held his arm towards Samya signaling to cuddle her "May I?" He asked and when Samya nodded he pulled her in his chest. Samya nuzzled his chest inhaling his scent and before she knew she fell asleep. Abraxas throughout the time caresses her face with his knuckles. He stroked her hair. Kissed her entire face, and also making sure she doesn't wake up. "Nam DEORUM"he whispered. After some hours he got up deciding to leave her room and prepare something for her to eat. He noticed how her room was filled with dream catchers of all sorts. On her door on her window everywhere. She had a double bed closer towards the window and a pant for decoration besides the window. Her room had loads of lights. That could make it look like a day even at night. He wondered why. The window in her room was big enough to let good amount sunlight come in even in winters. He left the room switching all the lights off and started preparing something to eat for Samya.