Baby Girls

I'm so so sorry!

Bradley an I decided it would be best if we didn't bring the twins. The trip is today and it's three in the morning. I'm rushing around the house. Mom is driving us in Bradley's truck and Dad is following in his car to drive Mom and the kids home. The only reason we aren't driving ourselves is because I want to say goodbye to put off saying goodbye to the twins until I have no choice. This time, I gave the key to the house to Mom. My bag is packed and I'm rushing around, grabbing things I need. Bradley is pissing me off because he's just lounging on the couch.

"Why aren't you helping me?" I snap.

"Baby, your literally running around and looking in the same two spots to find your phone that you gave to me to hold three minutes ago." I grab the list of students. The twins are still sleeping, but we moved them to their car seats.

We have everything. Mom and Dad pull up and come inside. Dad and Bradley bring everything to the truck, and I check the stove for the last time to make sure it's off and then get in the car.

I get placed between the twins, and I hold their tiny hands while they sleep.

I literally didn't even try this morning. I woke up in red sweats and a white bra. I pulled a gray tank top on, I didn't brush my hair, I just threw it in a bun, and then I stepped into converse and we were off.

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I feel my shoulder being gently shaken. I lift my head up and see we're at the station.

Looking at the twins, tears fill my eyes.

When they realize we're leaving them, they're going to cry, and I know I'll cry.

Bradley will act like he's chill about it, but really his heart will be shattering.

We have two reserved cars.

One car is for during the day and they're chairs and the other car is for night where we move to bunks.

Everyone is getting driven.

The train is already waiting and we're late.

"Excuse me, move, I'm late. Out of the way." I call, shoving my way through the crowd. My family follows me, Bradley and Dad have the luggage, I have Aubrey, and Mom has Skylar.

The students with their parents look relieved when they see me elbowing my way through the crowd.

The workers are waiting for us. They're letting us on first. I immediately start counting and get a hundred and eighteen.

Perfect.

"I'll get on and get everyone in their seats and you do attendance." I say. Bradley nods. I sets down Aubrey and Mom puts down Skylar.

I crouch down in front of them.

"Listen." I say, holding their left hands. "Mommy and Daddy are leaving for a little while, okay? You're going to stay with Nana."

"But me no want go." Skylar pouts. Aubrey mimics her and looks down.

"I know, but we have to." I say. "I promise we will be back." I whisper. "I love you guys."

Both girls start crying, and my lack of sleep and emotion levels are high and I start crying too.

"No leave Mommy!" Aubrey cries.

I pull them into my arms, crying too. "I love you. I love you." I kiss their heads. Everyone seems to be tearing up. I look at Mom. "They need to call every night. Make sure they have milk once a day, they can have chocolate or strawberry or white. They'll tell you what they want. Make sure they're in bed by nine. Don't give them a bath every night, that's not healthy. Make sure it's every other night. If anything happens or anything goes wrong, I want a phone call. I don't cre if they couch or get a papercut. I'm their mother, I want to know."