yellow tulips｡

prologue.

//tw: suicidal thoughts, swears

was she really that ugly.

ugly enough to be treated like shit, thrown around and pushed aside as nothing more than a punching bag for all the insults and harassment.

ugly enough to be considered less relevant, less important, equal to a slave under the control of her abusive bullies torturing her daily with no remorse whatsoever.

and everyone knows. they know, they just don't care.

her classmates, the teachers, her "friend", they all just turn a blind eye on her.

just because of what the mirror shows.

silly little julyn, they'd
never help an ugly
girl like you.

"i-it's not my fault i was born ugly" she choked out loud beneath her sobs, too many thoughts filling her head and some escaping through her tears.

what if i just disappeared?

would that make everyone happy? so they won't have to see my face again.

i'm nothing but an eyesore anyways.

she lifted her glasses momentarily to wipe the tears,

"w-why are you guys doing this to me..? i've done nothing to y-you..." (a/n this is a flashback)

before standing on top of the edge that bordered the rooftop. the city looks so pretty at night.

"wanna know why?
because you're ugly."

there's no going back now.

"i'm so lucky to have a beautiful daughter like you."

she paused.

why should she die?

why should she throw everything away just because of some snarky remarks here and there?

yes they might have affected her mentally, but physically she was still strong and alive.

and there's still so much more she can do now at the age of 19, so much more she would've missed out on in the future.

it'd be such a waste. a waste of her life.

"...what the hell am i doing," she scoffed out loud, "this is so stu-"

a hand suddenly grabbed her wrist, pulling her back off the ledge.

what the fuck.

she must've been too lost in her thoughts to even realise her surroundings, let alone hear someone else on the rooftop.

and now she's falling, but not really falling.

it was...weird.

it's as if time slowed down, but sped up so rapidly at once. frozen in mid air but her mind was still running.

it was only a matter of time before gravity took it's course and she'd feel her body crash onto the floor, crashing her back into reality.