No Place Like Us (ON HOLD)

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Sayorah POV

Once we got back to Messiahs house, I was drained from thinking so much. I had barely gotten any sleep these past couple of weeks. I'm glad Wilson isn't going to be around anymore. It may not be for life but it's long enough.

"Hey u ok ma?" Messiah asked me, I hadn't even noticed I zoned out on the couch "yea I'm gud" "u want anything to drink?" It'd been so long since I had wine n I needed it "wine please"

He came back wit a glass of wine and a glass of henny for him. He handed me my glass and sat next to me. We sat in silence for a couple minutes before I spoke. "Thank u...thank u for everything u hav done for me" he looked at me as I looked at him "ofc, it's no problem at all" he said smoothly "no really, u hardly knew me and yet these past few months you've been there for me the most. Ur patient wit me, uk how to make me smile in my darkest moments. You've shown more loyalty to me in these times than tht Devil man has in all the years we've been together" I said getting a little bit emotional. I looked down at my cup n drank the rest

"I kno that things hav been moving really fast but I've felt I guess protective of you since I started getting to kno u. These past couple months my attraction to u has intensified but I want to respect the fact tht u jus got out of a relationship and lost a baby, as hard as tht may be. I want u to be secure wit urself and ready to be in a relationship wit me before we go there. I don't want to hav to pay for his wrongs" I looked down at my empty glass at wat he said. He's right I need to work on myself "ur right" I said still looking down.

He lifted my chin so I was looking at him. "I'm a patient guy, I'm not rushing to be in a relationship" he said softly. His voice soft and raspy. I loved his voice, it did things to me. The way he looked at me n the way his lips moved had an affect on me tht Wilson could never compare to. I hadn't even realized I was leaning in to kiss him until the doorbell interrupted us. I backed away n cleared my throat "I'll get it" I said quickly "oh ok, u want more wine?" He asked "yes please"

I got up to answer the door. "Hi can help u?" I asked politely, the woman standing in front of the door way smile disappeared and a scowl replaced it "who r u?" She said wit venom laced in her voice. I scrunched up my face, "I should be asking u tht" I said calmly. Just before she could say anything Messiah came from the kitchen "who tht ma?" He asked coming to the door "Roma? Wat u doin here" this Roma chick instantly smiled "Hey Siah" I looked between the two "u kno her?" Messiah nodded "I left her in charge of my tattoo shop in New York, which is where she should be seein as how I don't trust nobody else over there to watch over my shop" he said and looked at her sternly "oh relax" she shoved her way past me "u don't need to worry, I don't seem to happy to see me" she said while looking around the house "wow this is beautiful" she gawked

"Roma wat u doing here?" Messiah asked again "I'm just visiting I can't come see my very good friend?" She turned to look at him and so did I, he looked slightly irritated. "How long r u here for? And who did u leave in charge of my shop?" "Relax I left Buddha in charge, he was your second choice after all anyway aren't u going to introduce me to ur maid"

She looked directly at me wen she said it and I scoffed. I don't hav time for these young ass bitches. She ain't even fully dressed for her ass cheeks hanging out n I could smell her cooch from where she was. She was still staring at me so I turned to look behind me and Siah to see who she was talking to "um y is she looking behind her?" Roma asked Siah n before he could answer I spoke up "SHE is looking for who u talking about cuz he don't got no maid" I said putting all my weight on one leg n crossing my arms

Messiah snorted "hav respect Roma this is Sayorah my good friend" I felt a pang in my heart after he said tht "oh I'm sorry, u must've been a friend of his mother. My apologies I was taught to respect my elders and I hav been so rude" she said smiling wit her hand out. I looked down at it before looking at her then at Messiah n he was scowling at her "Bruh chill tf out she ain't no friend of my momma" her smile disappeared n she ticked her lips in retracting her arm.

"Jus go sit on the couch I'll be back, straight down" he said to her n she went to sit down. I was about to go to my room before he grabbed me "hey I'm sorry Ian kno she was coming. I hope tht don't make u uncomfortable" he asked I slowly pulled my arm back "ofc it doesn't, y would it I'm just ur friend" I smiled "Sae u kno I" he started but I walked off to my room.

One hour later

I had been sitting in the room for the past hour looking for apartments. I been here long enough, I had enough money for an apartment I jus needed to find one. I had my music playing so I couldn't hear anything but I started getting hungry. It's 3 in the afternoon n I hadn't eaten breakfast cuz I was too sick to my stomach.

I walked out my room n to the kitchen to find Roma looking in the refrigerator. Just as I walked in she was closing the refrigerator door. "Oh Sarah I didn't see u there, that is ur name right?" She asked wit a smirk "no actually it isn't. It's Sayorah, n urs is Rachel right?" I asked back wit the same smirk she had a mug on her face after tht but laughed sarcastically saying no and before she could tell me wat it was I interrupted her "anyway I'm hungry n ur blocking the fridge" she rolled her eyes n walked away.

After she left Messiah came in "oh hey Sayorah" I looked out the fridge at him n said mhm, I was still pretty hurt about wat he said earlier. I shouldn't even be feeling this way about someone I just met, I jus got out of a relationship n lost a baby. I don't hav time for feelings. Suddenly I felt a tap on my shoulder n it was messiah "hmm I'm sorry I said sumn?" "Uh yea I was asking if u were ok, u hadn't come out the room for an hour" he said scratching the back of his head "oh yea well I was looking at apartments" I told him n his face dropped "apartments? Y I told u u could stay as long as u like" "yea well I've stayed long enough" I said putting my leftovers in the microwave to heat it up n he scoffed "is this about me calling u my friend?" He asked crossing his arms "not at all, y would I be mad about u calling me ur friend? That's all we are nothing more and friends don't over stay their visit" the microwave dinged "Sae uk I didn't mean it like tht, I jus...I don't even know wat to call us. It's not like we got to finish our talk and-"  I cut him off "it's not like we are anything more than friends" I said grabbing my food "we didn't talk about getting into a relationship, we talked about respecting each other's space seeing as how I jus had some traumatic experiences" I said n sighed, I finally turned to look at him again n his face was distorted wit....well idk I couldn't tell "look I'm not mad I jus think that it would be good for me to live in my own since I haven't in a long while or at all actually. I'm almost 30 and I haven't ever lived on my own. I went from my mothers house to having a roommate in college to living wit my crazy abusive narcissistic ex, to here. I need to do this to find myself again. Like u said I need to be secure before anything happens between us" he looked at me a flash of sadness then he cleared his throat n before he could reply I walked out the kitchen.

Roma quickly turned on her phone acting as if she was doing something but I knew she was listening. I didn't even pay her any kind I jus went to my room.

Messiahs house in mm
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