Virgin Porn Star

Virgin Porn Star Part12

Shelly's POV

I never thought this day would come so soon.  Here I was, interviewing another person to take Mercy's place at the coffee shop.  It's been a week and a half since Mercy left, and nothing seemed the same.  I had gone over and over applications and none stood out to me.  Every interview I took never seemed good enough.  I keep comparing everyone to Mercy.  If I kept this up, the coffee shop would tumble.  Mike and I couldn't keep this place going on our own.  Why did the boss leave this up to me?  I was SO not cut out for this job.  Mike should be the one in here giving interviews to all the random people who needed jobs.  It didn't matter that I was years older than Mike.  He was better at this sort of thing.  Maybe one day he would run a business of his own.  He was certainly cut out for that type of thing.  Which made me wonder why he stayed here.  He was 23, didn't he have better things to do?  I mean, he had his whole life ahead of him.

Not that I was so much older, I'm still only 31. 

Who am I fooling? I'M FLIPPING 31 AND SINGLE.  Most of my friends had married off by now.  As for me, I had gone to school for accounting, worked as an accountant for a couple years, then quit.

What was I ever thinking?  Accounting isn't for me.  Nevertheless, accounting is what I had done.  If I could go back and change it all, I would.  I wasted so many years on the boring study, and the worst job imaginable.  Now that I'm back to start, I have nothing.  I'm not at my prime any more, I can't just go picking up guys.  And none of the guys around here wanted me anyways.  It's a small town, and the people who haven't already gotten married, aren't so much of a great choice.

 I suppose I should try the newest way of dating.  The Internet.  Somehow, using the internet seemed desperate.  But I was desperate.  I was tired of going home to a small empty house with no one to share my day with.  I mean, I love my house, but I just wish I had someone to share it with.  I had liked having Mercy stay with me.  I would have loved if she had stayed with me again instead of leaving.  I still had money from my accounting job, so she wouldn't be putting me out in any way.  I just wish she would have stayed.  

Working at the coffee shop had been so much better when Mercy was here.  Now, it all just seemed pointless.  Like we were stuck in this whole of a place, with no way to get out.  But we had ways to get out, didn't we?  But did I want out?  I loved working here.. Didn't I?  Then why did I recently start dreading work?  I could shrug it off as being sadness from missing Mercy, but that wasn't what this was about.  I did miss Mercy, but.. I was missing something else entirely.  I was missing a partner.

 If I had family, maybe I wouldn't feel so lonely all the time.  However, my family wanted nothing to do with me.  Growing up, they had never really been around.  They had traveled more than anything.  while some people may have envied me for my rich family, I envied them.  It didn't matter to me, having the money.  I wanted that parents that would care about what time I got home, or what grades I had on my report card. 

They had been fine with my going to school to be an accountant, but as soon as I quit my job and starting working for the coffee shop, they had basically disowned me.  They moved out of the state.  It was worse that I had to find this out from their old neighbor.  I had gone over to 'visit' one day, and had come to an empty house.  I asked the neighbor and he said they had left the state, with no idea where they might have headed. 

I hated being alone.  It seemed everyone around me kept leaving, and one day, I would be left with no one.  I kept nearing a future of nothingness.  Of dying alone.  I didn't want to die alone.  Pretty soon, Mike would leave, too.  Of course he wouldn't stay here forever.  First Mercy, then Mike.  When would my time could?  Would my time come?

I lifted my head up to look at the girl in front of me.  21; local; just moved out of her parents house.  She needed a job.  and she seemed nice enough and able enough to work here.  If not, then I guess the search would continue.  But for now, she would be Mercy's replacement.  I hope Mike will like her...

I'm VERY sorry to make you all wait, and I realise this is a short chapter, but I thought I would get something out there to ease some of the anger? Maybe? Don't hate me? :[   lol, Please forgive me. I would love you all forever. :]