Oliver Wood's diary

Chapter 4

After the match there was a party in the Gryffindor common room. Percy didn't attend.

And when I came up to the dormitory it looked like he already slept. So, I quietly got ready for bed and then slipped into it exhausted and ready to sleep.
I could hear a muffle from Percy's bed and then he spoke, I forgot all about sleep.
"I'm sorry about earlier," he said, "I didn't mean to attack you like that."
I sat up straight, I did NOT mind it at all, but how should I tell him that? How should I tell him how I really felt about this morning, how should I tell him that it was his tickles that had made me save all the quaffles in the match, and that I hadn't truly enjoyed the party because I had felt his absence.

So, I just said, "Oh, don't worry about that, it was fun." And that is not how I feel. All I want too is to feel him that close to me again. Gaze into his beautiful eyes. Run my fingers through his red, curly hair. To hold him tight, and slowly run my hands up under his shirt. Just feel him, truly feel him.

But I didn't say that I just said, "Goodnight Percy, see you tomorrow." Like the big moron I am.

After breakfast this morning most of the Gryffindors were in the common room making homework. It was raining outside, a lot, and there was distant sound of thunder.
It had been awkward between Percy and me this morning, we had barely talked, and he had gone off to breakfast without me and without saying one word.

Then in the common room he was sitting by himself reading some sort of potion book, taking notes on a piece of parchment beside him.
I was sitting with my own homework, charms, but my mind kept floating off and my eyes kept looking at him. He looked sad, and cold, it was actually pretty warm in the room, but for some reason he looked cold.
Angelina dragged me back to reality by saying my name. I shook my head and tried to concentrate on my homework, but I kept on glancing at Percy.

And then without thought to it I stood up. My movement was so sudden that I got a lot of attention, among other's Percy's.

I felt uncomfortable standing there. I looked around, Angelina and I got eye contact, she tilted her head, to ask what was going on. I looked the other way again, took a deep breath and put my eyes on Percy.
I raised my voice, opened my mouth and let out the words: "Hey.... I'm gay..."

I dropped down to my chair so fast that I got dizzy.
Angelina joined her hands and shortly the whole hostel was clapping.
I looked at Percy, but he wasn't there anymore.