Oliver Wood's diary

Chapter 7

Some part of me have known for a long time, but now all of me knows and I can write it down.

I Oliver Wood am in love with Percy Weasley.

It sounds silly but it's like writing that makes it truer. I'm gonna write it some more.

I'm in love with Percy. I'm in love with Percy. I'm in love with Percy. I'm in love with Percy. I'm in love with Percy. I'm in love with Percy. I'm in love with Percy.

But even though this is a very pleasing thought I must also come to the conclusion that I'm his friend first. He's probably not even attracted to boys, and even if that is the case, what are the chances of it being me? Very small.
So, the plan is to play it cool and keep my dreams and fantasies to myself. When I see him later today, I therefor will resist my desire to snog him to dead and just platonically ask him if he's okay and then apologise for my ill-mannered actions.

Believe me this was my plan!
But when Percy came into the dormitory that evening it didn't exactly go that way. I was sitting on my bed reading a book on quidditch when he walked in. I started to get up so I could apologise properly, but he pointed at me and said "don't!" So, I just bumped back onto the bed.
He came over and stood by the foot of my bed. He had a weird look in his eyes, I couldn't quit figure out. He opened his mouth as to say something, but then closed it again. He repeated this several times before he gave up and crawled into my bed.

He put his arms around his legs and looked at me.
I wanted to say something, I didn't know what, just something, so I opened my mouth. But I didn't get to say anything because Percy put his hand over my mouth and looked at me with a pleadingly look. "May I speak first?" he said. His hand was still on my mouth, so I just nodded.
He lowered his hand and looked at something above my head before looking at me again.

When he started speaking I could hear there was a lot of thoughts to every single word he spoke. His voice was steady put his eyes looked around nervously.
"You know Oliver, I have been a total dickhead lately." I started shaking my head, but he just shushed me. "No but I have, you know I have. That's why you went crazy this morning." I started saying that he hadn't been a dickhead and that I was the fool, but he interrupted me. "Just let me finish, will you?" So, I nodded again.
"The thing is, I've been sort of confused lately. I don't know how to act around you." And there I thought that I had ruined EVERYTHING by saying I was gay, that he was afraid I was gonna jump him or something like that. But when he continued it wasn't that. "You know how you came out to everyone a while ago? In the common room?" He looked more determined now, as if what he was saying had to get out in order for him not explode. "Well, I'm also gay... I haven't told anyone else yet." My eyes got wide; Percy was gay! It felt like the best moment of my life. That beautiful, quirky boy I had dribbled over for months was indeed gay. I couldn't believe my luck.

I smiled at him, he smiled back and continued. "I haven't known what to do with myself in some time, I just haven't been able to figure it out, that's why I cried this morning... But now I have figured it out." He looked me in the eyes now. Then he leaned forward and put his mouth to my ear. "I'm in love with you, Oliver." I froze, was he really in love with me? Or was it some joke to make me look stupid.
But then I did something, I put my hands around his head and dragged it in front of my own. I gazed into his eyes, to see if he really spoke the truth. What I found in his eyes were sorrow, for all the arguments we had hat, all the pushing away.

So, I kissed him. And he kissed me. His hands on my back, in my hair. Mine all over him to get a feeling of everything I had longed for.

I laid him down on the bed, sat upon him and just kept on kissing him. I didn't care for anything else in that moment.
Percy flipped me over and draw away to look at me. "I take it you don't mind me either." He was laughing. And then he started to tickle me, his face was one big grin.

I pulled him down by his tie, in order for me to kiss him again, more tenderly than before.

After a while of this we fell asleep, he was the inner spoon and I folded myself around him, with a wish of never letting go.
His body was warm, and he was breathing heavily. I kissed his neck several times before I fell asleep.