My heart pounds and there's voices in my head.
You can't do it! You won't make it. You dreams are all pretend!
My eyes blur bad to the point where I can't see.
All I can ever do is focus on one thing.
You're a failure, the voices say, snickering at my fear.
The room goes dark, my mind goes blank, but everything seems so clear.
I can feel my skin get clammy as my breathing escalates.
My thoughts become condescending, as my hands begin to shake.
I'm rocking back and forth, begging for the voices to stop.
My brain is playing games, sending thought after thought after thought.
And I feel like screaming, now but my throat feels so dry.
I feel the barrier breaking down as I gradually begin to cry.
My breathing becomes forced hicupps as I try to calm myself down.
The room is beyond just silent, nobody makes a sound.
Though their mouths are moving, talking to me, no words dare come out.
I try to slow my breathing, it helps to sometimes count.
The voices laugh at my attempt to rid me of my thoughts.
5 please just make the voices stop.
4 Leave me alone to let me drown in self pity
3 please go away I'm feeling kind of dizzy.
2 Let me be, take me away from all of this pain.
1 They finally leave, promising to come again.
And I doubt for just one second that everything will be fine.
Until the voices come again and begin their constant crime.
And I'm sinking into oblivion, sinking lower than Titanic.
Depper than depression, I'm lost in a cloud of self made panic.
The anxiety is building the deeper I sink.
I was standing at the edge until I'm pushed over the brink.
The hands that are own, don't save me as I fall.
Piercing screams of my fear, yet my ears don't hear my call.
My heart is beating faster, the beat heard by society.
And yet it is ignored, so I'm alone in this anxiety.
Lost and all alone, and my thoughts are all satanic.
Drowning in this imaginative state of my own created Panic.
