Its like the closer i get, the more i want.
New feelings hidden behind emotionless faces.
A burning desire that takes away all my pain as soon as shes next to me. So close but yet so far.
For the first time I'm witnessing the feeling of emptyness just at the mention of another name.
All i can think is She's mine. But i dare say it out loud, the facade of an empty face and no feeling.
Just a moment before i break down I realize what I'm doing and I'm angry.
This shouldn't be happening. No domination or property to own.
Its her choice if she wants you to leave her alone.
Salt water in droplets slide down hot cheeks with shaking hands wanting to hold her forever as if time could never end.
The phone rings and I'm smiling, even though half the time we're arguing, but i love it cause when she fustrated it's my moment.
I smile bcause i know she's aggravated, and yet she stays. She never leaves and that moment is satisfying.
The tears in my eyes collect into a bottomless pool.
The word love, never enters because its always been there.
Honestly its unfair.
Shes so far away and yet so close.
I hurt her.
And i hate it. I hate when shes in pain. When shes sad. Mad.
And I hope that when I hear her voice, im not the only one smiling.
