𝕄𝕪 𝔹𝕣𝕠𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕣'𝕤 𝔹𝕠𝕪𝕗𝕣𝕚𝕖𝕟𝕕 // 𝐌𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐮𝐧𝐠

04

PLEASE REMEMBER THAT I SAID IN THE CHARACTER INTRODUCTION THAT CHAPTERS 3 4 AND 5 POSTED OUT OF ORDER. I HAVE TRIED TO FIX IT MANY TIMES BUT IT NEVER WORKS. IM SORRY BUT ITS A LITTLE ANNOYING WHEN PEOPLE COMMENT ABOUT IT EVEN THOUGH I ALREADY PUT A DISCLAMER IN THE VERY FIRST PART. THANKS FOR UNDERSTANDING. I LOVE ALL OF YOU MHWAH 😘😘

Minho pushed him away. "What the fuck?" He tried walking away. 

"You can't tell me you don't want to." Jisung responded, pulling Minho back to face him. 

"That's not the point. It doesn't matter if I want to. We can't. We already agreed it wouldn't happen again." 

"Come on. What's the harm in doing it again? What's done is done. Why not have a little fun in it?" Jisung pulled him closer, while smiling flirtatiously.

"Jisung, please. Don't make this harder than it has to be." Minho looked down, not wanting to make eye contact. 

"Do you think this is easy for me? It's not fun being in a relationship with one man and then having sex with your first love. Especially that person being your boyfriend's brother." 

"If it's not fun for either of us, then please quit. We don't need to both be hurting." Neither of them knew what to say. "Yongbok will be done in the shower soon, you should be down there so he knows nothing is going on." 

"But something is obviously going on." Jisung replied, wanting to stay with his hyung. 

"Nothing is going on." Minho looked at him sternly and pushed him out of the room. He closed the door and heard Jisung sigh on the other side. As Jisung went down the steps, Minho slowly started breaking down. He wanted to be with Jisung. He wanted to so badly. Ever since that night, Minho had been infatuated with Jisung. Every little movement or noise he made didn't go unnoticed by Minho. Minho wanted him, but he knew he couldn't have him. Jisung was the forbidden fruit, and he wanted a bite. Jisung acting the way he is made things so much harder for him. Minho wanted to give in so badly, but he knew he had to be strong. It hurt him to not respond to Jisung's effort, but he knew he had to to protect his brother. The more he thought about it, the more he cried. Minho was sitting by the door, sobbing, when he heard a faint knock on the door. 

"Who is it?" He asked, trying to stabilize his shaky voice. 

"It's just me." Yongbok replied, softly. 

"Come in." He walked in the room, and went towards Minho's closet. He wasn't wearing a shirt. "What are you looking for?"

"It's one of your shirts. It's blue and white and has stripes going up and down." Minho just nodded as Yongbok continued searching. He pulled out a shirt and smiled. "Found it. Is it cool if I borrow this?" He asked, looking at his brother for the first time. He dropped the shirt and walked over to Minho. "Wait, what's wrong?" 

"It's nothing."

"Tell me what's up." 

"You know that guy I was talking about earlier, the one I lost my virginity to?" 

"I thought you said you didn't even remember his name." 

"Uhm, well, I do. Anyways, he just told me he wanted to see me." 

"What's wrong with that? I thought you liked him." 

"I do, but he has a boyfriend. He told me that since we already did it once, it wouldn't hurt if we did again. But I don't want his boyfriend to get hurt. His boyfriend is a really nice guy who doesn't deserve that." 

"Oh. Well, fuck him. I wish I had some better advice, but that guy just sounds like a real douche-bag. I swear, if I was the boyfriend and Jisung ever pulled some shit like that, I would be so hurt."

"Yeah." Minho just said and looked down. 

"So, I hope you don't mind if Jisung and I go out. If you want me to stay with you, I can."

"No, go ahead. Have fun with your boyfriend. I'll call Seungmin over so I won't be lonely." Felix nodded, grabbed the shirt, and left. Minho pulled out his phone and called his best friend. 

"Hey, Seungmin, can you come over?" 

"Sorry, me and Hyunjin were planning on going out. We can see each other tomorrow though, okay?" 

"Yeah, of course. Have fun. Use protection." Minho giggled and hung up. He called Chan. 

"Sorry, Min. I can't really talk right now cause Jeongin is pulling me to go somewhere with him, but I'll call you back as soon as possible. Love you." Chan hung up before Minho could say anything. There was only one other person Minho could call. After a few rings, Changbin denied the call. Minho received a text from him though. 

busy, ttyl <3

Minho was always there for everybody, but when he needed somebody, nobody was there for him. He felt truly alone. He was surrounded by a group of great friends, but he felt like he couldn't ever rely on them. It was probably all in his head, but that didn't help diminish the feeling of isolation.  If anything, it made him feel worse. It made him feel like shit because he thought he couldn't trust his friends and he thought he needed to push his friends away. It was a cycle of self-pity and self-hatred that never stopped. That night, Minho just laid in bed for hours by himself. He could hear the notifications on his phone from his friends sending him texts or a new Instagram post from a random celebrity. He couldn't be bothered to check what or who it was. It was around 2 am and his phone started vibrating persistently. He realized it was a phone call. It was from Chan. He answered, not wanting to worry him. 

"Why're you calling so late, hyung?"

"You know I don't sleep." Chan softly laughed. "But, uh, I just wanted to ask if you were okay. When you called earlier, I couldn't talk because of Jeongin, and I completely forgot to call you back when I got the chance, so what's up? " Minho could tell Chan cared for him. Chan was the only one in the friend group older than him, so it was nice to occasionally have that older person comfort you. Yongbok and Minho never really had present parents growing up. By the time they were both in high school, they were completely on their own. Their house was paid off, but they still had to provide for themselves. 

"It's fine. I was just bored and wanted somebody to hang out with. I ended up just falling asleep though." Chan knew Minho was lying, but he didn't want to push him too much. 

"Did you end up getting somebody to hang out with?" 

"Nah, Seungmin was with Hyunjin, my brother and Jisung were out together, and Changbin didn't even answer my call. But like I said, I eventually went to sleep." 

"Okay, just call me whenever. I may not always be able to talk at that exact second, but I'll make time for you." 

"I will, hyung. Don't worry." 

"I just want you to know you can rely on me."

"I know. Well, I'm gonna go to sleep. You should too. Love you, talk soon." 

"Yeah, love you too." Minho hung up and just set his phone down, staring at the blank wall in front of him. He knew he had people he could rely on, but he couldn't bring himself to do it. He didn't want to end up hurt again for trusting people too much. 

This is getting sadder than I had imagined. When I first got the idea, I thought it was going to be funny and dumb. That is not how it is turning out though. Yikes!