When Destiny Misfires

Kabanata 11

Friends...

I keep on kissing him without minding around us. I don't care if someone will see us here, all I want is to kiss the person who was always on my mind.

He didn't kiss me back, he was just stun as if he couldn't believe that I'm kissing him right now. Saglit akong tumigil at tiningnan siya ng puno ng pag-iingat.

I saw how his lips parted when our eyes met, tears flowed on my cheeks while we're staring at each other.

Muli ko siyang siniil ng halik, alam kong nagtataka parin siya kung bakit bigla nalang naging ganito ang mga kilos ko sa kanya. Hindi niya akong magawang halikan pabalik pero ramdam ko ang paghapit niya sa katawan ko palapit sa katawan niya.

Saglit niyang nilayo ang bibig niya sa'kin ng maramdaman niya ang luha ko sa pagitan ng aming bibig. He stared at me filled with amusement in his eyes.

He gently wiped my tears on my cheeks and kissed my eyes down to my cheeks where my tears flowed and then back to my lips again.

This time he's the one who kissed me torridly. He was kissing as if he was very eager for my lips.

Humakbang siya kaya napaatras ako. He stepped again until we reach the bench where I was seated earlier without breaking our kisses. He sat down and made sit on his lap while our lips keep on touching each other.

We stopped for a moment when we both lost air because of our kisses. Pinagdikit niya ang aming noo habang parehas na nakatingin sa isa't-isa.

"I-I'm sorry, AJ," I said shivering. I saw how his forehead wrinkled because of what I said.

I caressed his face gently and kiss his forehead. Kitang-kita ko kung paano nanlaki ang mata niya sa ginawa ko. "I-I'm sorry, patawrin mo ako sa lahat-lahat ng ginawa namin ng pamilya ko sa'yo, patawrin mo ako sa lahat." Another tear poured from my eyes while saying those words.

I saw how he closed his eyes and bite his lower lip. Muli niya akong tiningnan, but this I saw the pain on his eyes at parang gusto kong saktan ang sarili ko dahil alam kong ako ang dahilan kung bakit nasasaktan siya ngayon.

"It wasn't your fault." He said and caressed my face too. Pinikit ko ang aking mata dahil hindi ko kayang salubungin ang mga mata niya.

Hindi ko alam kong bakit hindi niya magawang magalit sa'kin, kung bakit hindi niya magawang saktan ako ngayon katulad ng ginawa ko sa kanya.

I hurt him so many times, physically and emotionally. And I want him to hurt me back, baka sakaling mawala ang sakit na nararamdaman ko ngayon.

"W-why? Bakit hindi mo ako magawang kamuhian ngayon, AJ? I hurt you so many times pero kahit kailan ay wala akong narinig mula sa'yo." Sabi ko sa pagitan ng aming mga labi.

Ngumiti siya sa'kin at saglit na pinatakan ng halik ang aking labi. "Because there is no reason to be angry with you, Hira. You've been facing the pain and hatred for years, If hurting me is the only thing to make you feel better , then, I will accept that with all my heart until you lose your temper." Mas lalong bumuhos ang luha ko sa sinabi niya.