A year had passed by, but there was no interaction between us, while my colleagues had started dating or talking with some of the chicks, whom they use to leer at. Meanwhile, I stayed in the shell without doing anything, or moving further, thus doing my dead end tedious job. As I was extreme punctual to my office, I use to come half an hour or forty-five minutes prior to my shift time, and this was the reason, I came to know about her personal data. I was in IT department, so I use to login to company's intranet, and fetch all personal details of her. I learned about her residence address, and to my shock, there was a message that, she has to leave the company for better prospects. I was numb, it seemed that the world around me went into eternal silence, I wasn't in my senses, if someone would hit me, and I would never sense it, my eyes turned blurry. My mind was playing violin recital, it seemed that, sober music is playing in my background.
There was nothing more to do, I logged out of the system, and went to resume my tedious task. After few weeks, there comes her send off party, there was a huge hustle and bustle at the cafeteria, however, I was in nuance of relations, thinking of life, and its mysterious ways. I had turned philosopher that day; there were some colleagues, who knew about me having a drop on her. Today, I looked at her; however, she was buried in her PC, punching the keys of the keyboard, our eyes met but she was stealing glances. She didn't have feeling for me, and I am failed, as I always did in my life, and from the cafeteria, the song known as, "Soul Provider" was playing, however, I can't be a Soul Provider for her. She didn't understand the intent of my plan, but I can't blame her, as I didn't play my part. After a while, my favorite song, "I Love You To Want Me" was played by the DJ. This song is a subtle and a soothing song, this song conveyed my emotions, and this song speaks about unspoken love. The feelings that we never showed for years, and it was buried alive in our hearts. It's a perfect song for me, and those whose love are unexpressed.
In the evening there was a huge send off for her at the cafeteria, and her colleagues attended the party, some of them were holding placards, which were written, "Miss You." My colleagues and I attended the party, but for a brief time, and they left, while I decided to sit in office watching the whole party. I sat at cafeteria, and then bumped into my desk, and later coming back to cafeteria, I kept my system operating, so that no one would get the benefits of doubt. As it was Friday, I guess the party would be long, after a while, I saw people moving out of cafeteria, giggling and chuckling. I looked at the people, packing their bags and moving out, while they were wishing her good luck too. She was at her cubicle, packing her bags, I looked at her, but she wasn't looking at me. I was ready to move out, I packed my bags too, as I was about to move, I saw her colleagues moving out; they were waiting at the reception for her to come. I looked at her again, and our eyes met for the final time, I could see her watery eyes, which was conveying her thoughts, and then, she carried her bag and made a move. I was in standstill, as her eyes seemed so deep, and it was like conveying a deep message. I was the last to move out of office with a heavy heart. However, my love was platonic and I had no sense of lustiness for her, neither I had any desires to play around with her. My love was totally Immaculate or Pious or Auspicious.
That day was an epochal event in my life, the pain and repercussions of which would remain with me all my life. I was a drooling fool with a bag full of wool.
