When you're around I feel complete.
As if a part of me has been stitched back together.
It feels as though my soul is a magnet
And you are the thing it is most attracted to.
Whenever you're not around I go crazy.
The stitches come undone,
The magnets repel each other,
The hole has been exposed.
The thing is,
You don't even notice me.
You overlook me as if I'm the lonely sock in your drawer missing the other match.
You walk past me everyday and give me so much as a smile and a passing glance of your beautiful eyes.
Just with that, my heart rate accelerates.
My hands become slick with sweat.
I forget that there's anyone else around me.
All I see is you.
And you don't see me.
I catch you looking at me from across the field with your circle of friends.
I overthink.
I stutter mentally.
My legs go numb for a split second.
I think you must be looking at me because,
Because you and your friends are having fun watching me yearn for your attention.
Or, if by a miracle,
You see me at last.
In the same way I see you.
All I could ever hope for is your attention and appreciation.
For your love.
This doesn't feel like another silly grade school crush.
This, I feel down deep in my chest.
It feels real.
I hope someday, it'll feel real for you too.
