Noticing my obvious loss of words, he smiled that amazing smile that never failed to melt my heart in pictures and videos, and here it was right in front of me.
He chuckled, “I’m really sorry about your head by the way…. as for your donuts, that can be quickly fixed. There’s a pastry store just around the corner that makes the best donuts in town. I’ll take you there as a treat, eh? It looked like you really cared about those donuts.”
How. Incredibly. Embarrassing. First impression I make on Zayn Malik is that I’m a complete fatty. Once again, well done to Holly. “Oh my gosh, no no! I’m okay! It was my fault for not looking where I was going! It’s fine, really!” and as those words left my mouth, my tummy with impeccable timing growled the biggest growl I have ever heard it do. My jaw dropped immediately and my face turned bright red. Things were going really well for me right now, clearly. Zayn laughed and looked at me with such sympathy, “You poor thing, you must be starving. No wonder you weren’t looking where you were going, you couldn’t take your eyes off that donut!” I really just wanted to just die of embarrassment there and then.
“Look, I’m not going to take no for an answer. It’s the least I could do.” his smile was just so infectious and I couldn’t help but smile right back at him and agree.
We made our way to the pastry store that Zayn claimed would blow away my taste buds. But I think the only thing that would blow away my taste buds, would be him. Note to self: stop with the perverted thinking. I felt him looking at me so I turned to his face to only see him smile that amazing smile again. “I didn’t catch ya name by the way. Right now you’re donut girl!” Great, I thought to myself. But he seemed to be enjoying this teasing and as long as it meant that I could keep him smiling, I could keep seeing it.
“I’m Holly.” I said, and began to fiddle with my hair. I always did that when I was nervous.
“Holly.” he repeated to himself. “That’s a nice name.” he smiled again. Oh God.
“Thanks!” I replied. “Well, I’m Zayn.” he put out his hand for a hand shake. I reached out for his hand and we shook, “Nice to meet you Zayn.” I smiled at him and we continued to walk. I didn’t want to tell him I knew very well who he was, I didn’t want him to know that I was this crazy obsessed fan, I wasn’t too keen on scaring him off even more since my last embarrassing donut dilemma. So I decided to act like he was just another regular guy. With the most God-like features of course. And that he was. We chatted non-stop with no awkward moments, it was amazing how incredibly easy it was to get along with him.
“We’re here!” Zayn said as he opened the door for me into the pastry store and let me in first. What a gentleman I thought to myself. My nose was greeted with the most sweetest aroma.
Zayn took my arm and led me to the counter, “2 donuts please!”
The worker came back with the donuts and Zayn happily paid. “You really didn’t have to you know, they were just donuts.” I said. “Just donuts? Did you hear the way you yelled ‘NOOO MY DONUTS!!!’ when they hit the ground?!” Zayn started to laugh uncontrollably, looking incredibly cute. I laughed too, his reinactment of me was just too funny. I hit his arm playfully and told him to be quiet. We stopped laughing and our eyes met. His eyes were beautiful. Coco brown with long lashes. He smiled, and I could feel my heart skip a beat. I smiled back at him and his smile grew even bigger.
“Aherm.” an impatient customer said behind us. We realised we were getting lost in the moment and holding up the line. We both giggled and said we were sorry to the old impatient man, and stepped aside. I thought to myself, ‘Holy crap.. did we just have a moment? Did I just have a moment with Zayn Malik?!?’.. I didn’t want to over think this so I forced myself to forget about it and remind myself that this indeed was Zayn Malik and that I would not have the slightest chance with him.
“Here, try the donut! Trust me. You’ll absolutely love it.” Zayn handed me the donut and I looked into his eyes and took it. Every time I looked at him my heart just melted inside. “This better be the best damn tasting donut I have ever tried! Or else!!” I said, putting the donut into my mouth.
“Or else what?” he playfully winked. If I had been eating that donut I would have choked. I began to chew the donut and it began to melt in my mouth. Every single ingredient in it bursted and worked so well together. It was moist and cooked to perfection. I was experiencing a donutorgasm.“SWEET BABY JESUS!” I yelled and ran to the counter. “10 DONUTS PLEASE!!!!!” I asked urgently and slammed the money onto the counter. Zayn walked up to me laughing, “10 donuts?! I’m not sure we can finish that all?”
“What? We? ..these are for me not for us!” I said. Zayn bursted out laughing and I realised I was being a bit too, Holly, for a first time meeting. My embarrassing moments just wouldn’t stop rolling in. The worker handed me the donuts and I turned to Zayn with an embarrassed face. He could tell. “Aw love, don’t be embarrassed. You’re incredibly cute.” I turned even more bright red and tried to fight off my smile. I looked up to him, and once again, he flashed that amazing smile. Even his eyes were smiling too. ‘What is air?’ I thought to myself. We then again fell into another moment of complete silence and just continued to smile at one another, with our eyes locked.
I shook my head and told myself to snap out of it. I couldn’t keep doing this to myself, I knew I was only going to give myself false hope if I continued to stay with him any longer.
I turned to him with much regret, “Thank you for taking me here and thank you for paying for my donuts. It was really nice meeting you but I should be on my way now. Thank you again for being so nice.” I put my hand on his arm, smiled and began to walk away. My mind was going crazy at me, calling myself stupid and retarded for leaving Zayn. But who was I kidding, why would he ever like me?
Hesitating, Zayn replied “Uh, bye!”
I pinched myself several times as a punishment for doing the most stupidest thing I had ever done. But I didn’t want to set myself up for heart break. I didn’t want to go down that road again. I walked out of the door and looked back at him one more time and smiled, and there it was, his perfect smile smiling right back at me.
I stood outside the pastry store and looked around. It was beginning to get dark and cold, I shivered and wished I had worn more layers. I began to feel a sudden warmness around my back. I looked at my shoulders to find a blue and white varsity jacket.
“It’s freezing eh? Have my jacket.”
I turned around to see Zayn and all his beauty, smiling. I really don’t think I could ever get sick of seeing him smile. My heart immediately began to beat faster.
“Zayn! What are you doing here?” I asked a bit too happily. “Well…. to be honest..” he took a big breath and began, “I was kicking myself back there that I didn’t get your number. You left a really great impression on me and I’d really like it if I could see you again. So if you know… I could get your number.. we could.. catch up. But when ever you’re free of course! But if you don’t want to give me your number.. it’s cool. I get it. Agh, I’m talking too much aren’t I?” his face scrunched up and he started to scratch his head, you could tell he wasn’t impressed with himself. What an absolute cutie! But all I could think in my head was “OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD”
I bit my lip not believing how cute he was. “I’d love to give you my number and I would absolutely love to see you again.” I smiled and giggled when I saw his face light up. We exchanged phones and punched in each other’s numbers and handed them back.
“So when are you free next?” Zayn asked.
“Actually…. I’m free right now.” I replied.
Zayn’s face lit up again which released butterflies everywhere inside of me.
“Tea?” he asked.
“Tea!” I agreed
