You and Me (Ninjago)

20- Closure

Nya P.O.V.

I woke up to the sound of a loud knock on my door.

"Go away!" I shouted sleepily.

"You have been in your room for days. It's time to come out!" Jay called out.

I didn't feel the need to face the team after my outburst with Kai. I didn't want to receive their looks, the looks of pity. I just wanted to forget everything and lie here in my room for the rest of eternity.

"Nya? Hello, are you there?" Jay asked as he continued to knock on my door.

"Yes, I'm here and I'm coming. Just let me get dressed" I said irritated.

"Uh- Yeah sure. I-I'll just go then" He said awkwardly as he stumbled away from the door.

Jay really was something else. He was so awkward, yet there was a cuteness to it. We had spent many years together, much to my joy. He always knew how to make me laugh and being around him just felt easy. It was as if he knew how I felt, that he understood it. I appreciated having him as a close friend, which I very much needed at this moment in time.

I walked over to my wardrobe and pulled out my black joggers and a grey hoodie.

As I got dressed, I noticed a photo that was buried underneath a stack of clothes. I pulled it out and noticed that it was a photo of Lloyd and me. It was when he was still a young boy.

Seeing the photo made me giggle. He was so cute, but such a troublemaker. Who knew he would turn out like the man he turned out to be.

I picked up the stack of clothes and noticed a whole pile of photos. All were photos with Lloyd featured in them one way or another.

I had taken, well more ripped, them off my walls in the week that he died. I just couldn't bear to look at them then. For a long time, I tried to erase Lloyd from my memory. While that seemed easy at the time, it really wasn't an option. You can't just erase someone as if they never existed. It's a sign of weakness and weakness is a trait I do not wish to associate myself with.

I took the pile and sat down on my bed. I spread the photos over my bed and looked at them one by one.

They were all different. On some, he was smiling. While on others he just looked irritated. Lloyd always hated pictures of himself. I remembered when Wu tried to take one of all of us when he was still young. He just ran around the Bounty and hid in my wardrobe for the whole day.

I picked up a photo from around two years ago. It was taken just before the events of the Sons of Garmadon. The beginning of the end you could say.

I folded the picture, making it so that only Lloyd was visible. I placed the folded picture under my pillow and piled the remaining photos in a drawer.

At that moment I heard yet another knock.

"Hey Nya, you know you said you were coming? Well anyway, I'm going for a walk. Do you want to come with me?" Jay asked awkwardly.

After being locked up in my room for days, some fresh air would do me good.

I opened the door with a smile. "Sure, ready when you are" I answered.

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We walked out of the monastery and to my joy avoided the others.

"So, Nya. How have you been lately?" Jay asked.

"Um yeah, I'm alright I suppose. How are you?"

Jay rambled on about how annoying the others were and how they didn't understand him.

I honestly wasn't paying attention to a word he was saying. I was just remembering the times Lloyd and I took strolls like this. We never spoke much, we just enjoyed each others company. For others it may have seemed and sounded strange, but not for us. Our silence spoke a thousand words. The word 'silence' was unfamiliar for Jay.

"So yeah that's why I'm so happy to have you as a friend you know. You just understand me and I'm glad that we are so open to each other despite all that has happened. Don't you think? um- Nya?"

I snapped out of my trans and nodded.

"Yeah absolutely, totally agree!" I said convincingly.

"Well, I'm happy you feel that way because I actually wanted to talk to you about something" Jay said seriously.

I was intrigued by his sudden change of tone, but also had a bad feeling about where this conversation was heading.

"Alright, what is it?" I asked nervously.

"Well, it has been a while since um you know, the event. No, no the circumstance-"

"Lloyd's death, Jay. Lloyd's death" I cut him off.

"Yeah, that. So yeah it has been a while and you seem to be doing alright....ish. I guess what I'm trying to ask is if you see a future. You know, for us?"

I saw this coming, but that didn't mean I wasn't surprised. We had spent so much time together in the past year. It felt like old times before the events with Lloyd occurred. He was bound to have hope in us again. I mean, who could blame him? He was grieving too, we all were. But a relationship would not help that, at least not now. I wanted to go forward, not backwards. My story with Jay had been told.

"I'm flattered Jay, really. But you must understand that I still love Lloyd. I simply always will. I'm yearning for someone I can't have, which is not fair to you. I don't know what the future will bring and I try not to think of it. I'm taking it one day at a time. I simply can't imagine myself with anybody else at this moment and if that makes me lonely for the rest of eternity, then so be it. What I had with Lloyd was special, it will never be replaced. I hope you can understand that."

Jay simply nodded and turned around.

"We should get back to the monastery" He said as he walked off.

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A/N Hey guys! It's a bit of a Jaya chapter, I know. But I believe in closure and I always try and look realistically at events like these. I put myself in their shoes and if I where Jay, I would have a feeling of hope with Nya. Yes, it is a Lloya book but I can't disregard Nya's past relationship. A past relationship needs closure for someone to move forward in life and their relationship had no closure whatsoever. That's why I saw the need to write this chapter. Thanks for reading this chapter and an extra big thank you to those who take the time to comment and or vote for the chapters. See you in the next one!