Confused

Chapter13

( SHANNAPOV )

Getting out of the car, I walked towards the swings and saw Marcus pushing my son..
I heard the doors close behind me and Deya telling me that they were going over to the ice cream stand, giving her an okay I walk over to Marcus and my son, nervously walking towards them I feel my phone vibrating in my back pocket, reaching for my phone, I look at it and see that its a text from Deya..

(DEYA)
Dont be scared, your his mother shanna, he's just to young to know who you are. I love you now be a brave mother and finally meet your son..

(ME) 
Thank you for that and I will..

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" Marcus "
I said walking up to him..

" Wassup baby.."
He said reaching in for a hug, but getting paused in the moment..

" I'm here for my son Marcus not to play like you didn't just hurt me by some news that just tore me apart.."

" Your right,and I'm sorry I had no right to do that, its just you were hurting Shanna and I was waiting for the right time to tell you, it just wasn't safe for you to know at the time.."

" Safe??, Marcus I can handle the truth all you had to do was tell me what was going on, you always think about yourself your so fuckn selfish.."

" I know Shanna you just wouldn't understand.."

" Fuck you Marcus your just full of shit.."
I said walking towards our son who was looking at us argue..

" Hey cutie.."
I said picking him up off the swing..

" Hi.."
He said with the most sweetest voice I have ever heard..

" Do you remember me?? "

" Yes, daddy said you are my mommy.."
Hearing him say that made me drop a few tears, getting on my knees in front of him, I lean in and cried on his little chest..

" I'm so sorry I wasn't here for you, I swear you would not be going through this right now, I'm sorry baby.."
I said crying in his chest, feeling his little arms wrap around my head I start to hug him tight.. Feeling that connection between us just made me forget about all the problems I had and all the people around us, feeling like a lost mother with her child made me feel like no one was there around us, just me and my baby hugging..

SORRY FOR THE VERY SHORT CHAPTER, I JUST BEEN HAVING A LOT TO DEAL WITH.. I PROMISE NEXT CHAPTER WILL BE LONGER AND BETTER..

Xoxo RUBY RUE