Confused

Chapter 6

( SHANNA POV )

Getting home explaining everything to Deya about what happened at Marcus place, I get multiple calls from Marcus and Mar'jae I just can't believe the shit that I saw today I look at my watch and see that I got 30 minutes to get to this apartment to look at it.. I would ask Deya to go but she just keep fucking throwing up, and I'm pretty sure Mar'jae is on his way here and I don't want to see his face right now..

" Deya I'm bout to go look at theses apartments.."

I yelled standing with a glass of water in my hand for her to drink..

" I'm coming.."

she said walking out the bathroom wiping her mouth..

" You sure, don't be throwing up in my lil bucket now I already need a new car.."

I said handing her the cup of water..

We got outside and all of a sudden Mar'jaes truck pull up. He jumps out and runs over to me..

" Aye wassup with you back there?.."

He said grabbing my arm..

" Let go of my arm.."

I said yanking away from his grip..

" Why you tripping for ma, ine do shit.."

He said backing up giving me space to walk around him..

" You tell me, we ain't been going out a fucking month and you already cheating and lien to my fucking face"..

I said getting in my car starting it up, only for him to get in on the other side..

"  Fuck you talking bout I didn't cheat and I didn't lie to you.."

He said digging in his pocket getting his ringing phone.. I put my car in drive and drove to the apartment place..

" Aye let me call you back I'm handling something rite now.."

He said hanging up the phone and putting it on the side of the door..

" Who was that your other girlfriend Stephanie.."

I said reaching in the back seat to get the pictures Marcus gave me..

" No that was my mama anything else?"

" As of a matter of fact yes, When the fuck was this?"

I said taking out the pictures only for all of them to be snatched out my hand along with pictures of my sonograms, but he didn't look at my pregnancy pics first he looked at the pictures of him and Stephanie..

" So now what?"

I said snatching the pictures of my pregnancy out of his lap closing the envelope an throwing it on the backseat..

" Look Shanna I'm sorry that I didn't tell you I knew Stephanie but I'm not sorry about them pictures babe, that was before i even met you she was always just a quick fuck nothing else I swea nothing more I don't feel the same about her the way I feel about you.."

I drove in silence with tears in my eyes. I don't know if I should tell him what happened before he walked in, excuse me scratch that busted in Marcus place..

" So now that you got everything out of me what happened before I came what did he say to you.."

just as he asked I pulled up at the apartments and took my seat belt off. I looked at him and more tears started to fall..

" When I was sixteen I was pregnant by Marcus he swore to me up and down that he would be their for me and the baby, I thought I was so in love with him and so grown that I did everything for him.. I moved out my mother house just so she didn't know that I was out being grown 16 and pregnant, he treated me like shit but not only that the whole time I'm pregnant he out fucking his other baby mamas and out gambling and spending my money that I made at work on other bitches that he met at a bar or throwing them on bitches at the strip club..  So when it was time for me to have the baby I thought I had nobody until he showed up with flowers that looked exactly as the ones at the hospital that he got me.. After about three pushes on pushing my baby boy out the whole time I'm pushing he checking out the doctor who was helping me give birth..  After all my pushing and blood sweat and tears I get the worst news that I thought I had never gotten a day in my life, I found out after five minutes of being in the world that my baby died.."