Confused

Chapter 4

( SHANNA POV )

It's been four months and four days, and we still haven't made it official.. I mean I want to but deep down I'm really scared to go down that rode.. I really like him and have deep feelings for him but it's just my mind telling me one thing and my heart telling me another.. Lately I've been feeling a little sick I be having slight head aches and feeling sore from me and Mar'jae having sex a lot.. I plan on moving out soon and getting another job, my new boss has been lately saying racial remarks to me and other workers...

I rolled out of bed going to my bathroom to go find some aspirin.. I walked out the bathroom and went to put on some flip flops so I can go get a glass of water to take this pill.. I walked out the bedroom door and down the stairs and into the kitchen.. I grabbed a glass and turned on the faucet to fill up my cup.. I started to feel a little weak and heard the door open, I suddenly felt light headed and cold and couldn't walk.. I grabbed on to the chair with my left hand and my glass still in my right.. I heard Paco come to the kitchen as me and my glass fell on the floor causing it to break.. I hear Paco telling Mar'jae to call 911 as I started to fade in and out...

I woke up at the hospital with parts of my memories at home I see Deya on my right holding my hand crying on my cover..

" Don't be doing all that damn crying like I'm dying or sumn.."

I said sitting up groaning with little pain..

" Chuchi you scared the shit out of me, I thought I almost lost you man.."

she said sitting up wiping her tears..

" Girl I am not going anywhere besides who gon look after yo ass, I just don't understand what happened to me.."

" what exactly do you remember ma?"

" I mean I remember everything I remember feeling sick and going to the kitchen and falling and Paco and mar'jae was coming in and saw me on the floor, speaking of where are they?.."

" Girl in the waiting room getting some sleep, girl if I would've known better I'd think Mar'jae starting to love you.."

" Girl how he gon love me and we aren't even in a relationship.."

" well maybe it can be the love at first sight thing.."

" You believe that?.."

I said with a curious face..

" Yea cause I think I felt that way and still do feel that way with Aaron.."

" Awwee "

" Girl stop, well I'm finna go but I'm finna go get Mar'jae so he can give you a healing kiss ha ha.."

she said laughing...

" Ughh okay.."

" Aiight.."

" Wait Deya.."

" yea ma.."

" I love you slut.."

" I love you too hoe.."

Deya walked out the room and the door closes.. I looked at the time and it was 11:13 at night.. I looked for my phone and remembered that it wouldn't be with me.. The door opened and in came Mar'jae looking very sexy.. He came over to the left side of my bed and sat down on it..

" Damn babe you look Fucked up.."

" Ha I almost thought that you cared."

I said giggling..

" I do care babe, if I didn't care I wouldn't have gave you a ride that night and still be here on your new white bed.."

" Ha ha don't make me laugh it hurts"