i'm happy when i want to be

an entryway to my emotions

it's amazing how one person can change your life. one day i was perfectly still inside, walking through life at a somewhat normal pace, but now i'm slow dancing. i'm swaying, enjoying every innocent moment to the fullest. i am entranced by the rhythm; it's so addictive that i can't help but follow it. it is unknown, new, completely foreign, so why am i so willing to follow it with my whole being? why am i so strongly persuaded that this rhythm is the one i long for? the one i have been looking for? why is it that i am so deeply entangled with this forbidden fruit of a heartbeat that isn't beating for me? she's trapped me in her gaze, the one that i have never seen before, the same one that i will likely never see in the future. but i cant help but want to see it... witness her goddess-like gaze in person, not just in my fantasies... is that so bad? that all i want is to hold her at 3 am when she's feeling depressed and kiss her forehead and give her a reason to live and be her reason to live? and let her know that she is loved because...
fuck.
i'm in love with her. 
and i know i'm "too young" to feel these foreign feelings and i know that she would never love me but no matter how hard i try i can't get rid of these feelings. what if... i don't want to get rid of them? is that so bad?
all i want is for her to know she's loved. 
she deserves life. 
hell, she is my life-
she's invaded every corner of my soul, ever fiber of my being, leaving me empty but so very full at the same time-
please, my love, 
live on.

-vi

okay so... what the fuck?

well i didn't feel like writing a song or poem so i just wrote a nice lil paragraph yk? 

...

yeah well there are my uh emotions for u peace out um yeah-

drink some water and wear ur masks<3

-vi

p.s. this is copyrighted as well lollll