Min Yoongi's

3.

It's been three months now. The team has become one, like a family ; though sometimes loneliness creeps in me. I am nations away from my family and few steps closer to my dream, it feels like right now I am stuck between a river, from this point if I look back , I see the bank I left, my family , my nation , my culture. If I look forward, I see my dream, singing, dancing , a team, stardom, my debut.

Practice has been hectic, there has been days when I haven't slept , my feet have went numb and every inch of my body aches because of the practice. But the team helps me get through.

Haru's bubbly nature keeps the mood light , his smile sweeps off the pressure and stress off our shoulders. Aera is hard-working, she goes on diet like crazy, there have been weeks when she has survived only with water. She is a great dancer and her vocals are magic but she can be difficult, she gets angry easily , till now she has had a fight with every team member including the trainer's and the Sunbaes. Lucas just like his looks is a total confidence booster. He is the one who takes off the insecurities in the group, making everyone around him more confident about themselves, we have named him our leader and he has been playing the role amazingly. He is the one who solves the fights among the members.I've been in the group , had fun with them but I had kept my distance. I still haven't totally opened up to them but they have been patient with me. I've been choreographing dances and the team has been enjoying it. Haru himself is a great dancer , Lucas takes his time but is amazing. Aera on the other side has her own style and luckily I have been able to recognise it and provide her , her comfort.

The Sunbaes have been great to us, we have had our sessions with both BTS and TXT and we were all so nervous but on the contrary it was fun, we met the other members of BTS , Jimin, V , Jin and Jungkook. I and Jimin had vibed the day we first met. I have been in touch with him since then. There have been days when he hungout together.

The team had to constantly meet Namjoon , J-Hope and Suga as they were in charge of us. Namjoon and J-hope have been considerate of us , helping and advising us at our flaws and perks. But the only problem was Suga sunbae. There was something about him, he seemed unpleased, not by the team but me. There were days when he had scold me in front of the whole team and sometimes in private. There have been days when I teared up but I kept going.

Only a month is left for our debut. The atmosphere in the room seems tense. The usually cheerful Haru is silent today and Lucas seems to be lost in his own thoughts. Aera is on the floor stretching her legs for the practice and I sit in a corner on the floor with my knees close to my chest and my chin resting on them. Lucas breaks the silence "They'll like the song , right? " he looks at us. "Ofcourse they will, I spent a month on the lyrics ,hyung!" Haru jumps up."They'll have to " Aera sighs. Lucas looks at me. "Y/n? What do you think? " . I look up at him and say "Me..? Ah well.. I hope so oppa.." I mutter. I have been calling him OPPA  since the day we realised he was elder than us , Haru and I were the same age and Aera was the youngest.

The door slams open. "Ooops..." Namjoon stands there by the door looking at it. "Sorry..didn't mean to open it that way , " he says rubbing the nape of his neck. J-Hope pushes him in " Gwenchana , gwenchana" he giggles. Suga sulks behind them followed by Bang PD. "How have you been babies?" J-Hope asks giving Haru a shoulder hug and a high five to Lucas.  " Good " Aera shouts as she beams and waves at Namjoon. " Well I can't see the 'good' ," Namjoon jokes. The four of them take their seats and Bang PD gives us the cue to show them our debut performance. I go stand in the centre and Aera stands in front of me while Haru and Lucas Oppa stand next to me ,in a way that I am not visible from the front. The music starts and we begin. "Dragons" we shout in unison.

The performance ends and we have the Sunbaes on their feet except Suga. " Daebak!" J-Hope shout and Namjoon starts clapping and nodding. Lucas Oppa takes me and Haru into a group hug and I get squeezed between them like a sandwich. " That indeed was great guys!" Namjoon says finally , after we stop out celebration. But I look at Suga and know what is going to happen , the same that has happened everytime and wait for it to begin.

Suga stands up from his place and walks towards us , Lucas breaks the group hug and we stand in straight positions as if in military. He comes and stands right in front of me. "Not bad " he smirks and walks out of the room. The others in the room give each other a glance and I shrug my shoulder as if saying 'I don't know what's wrong with hat guy' . Bang PD gives a single clap and says "Okay , that's it , you guys are ready for your debut , all you can now do is wait." And then they all leave. Wait. That's what we only have to do. But isn't it the most difficult thing to do?