Min Yoongi's

5.

I follow him to the record room and he holds the door for me. I walk in and touch some switches and dials on the appliances. I turn back and smash into a hard chest. "Ow" I rub my forehead,"what.. what are you doing?" I ask him as he gets closer . "What was that about?" He asks his jaw tightly clenched. " What are you talking about ?" I ask him meeting his eyes, I realise I am not breathing, he is standing so close to me that I am afraid he'll hear my heart beating fast, why is my heart beating that way?. He runs his hand through his hair and takes a few step back making some space between us, I breath again. He keeps looking at me but it's different from how he looks at me when I am with others or when I am dancing or rapping. "Why.. why were you crying?" He finally asks , his sound a bit softer now.
"It's nothing. Nothing. Nothing for sure " I mutter.

He sits in a chair and turns around not looking at me, he is searching for something in the computer. "Spit it out y/n, I am not listening, no one is listening here, just spit it out and lift the burden off your shoulders, you'll feel good again," he says as he wears his headphones. I don't quite understand what he is saying but before I realise , my mouth has started spitting words."I am tired," I say but he is busy as if he didn't even hear me." I am tired and I feel choked under this pressure." I look at him again to make sure he isn't listening and he seems to be busy with the computer. " I am tierd! I am lonely! I hate it yet I love it.  I am different from the people here , and the difference scares me. What if the people don't accept me , what if my difference becomes a hinderance for the team? What if ... What if..." I sob as I sit down leaning against the wall.

I feel him get up from the chair and come and sit in front of me. He lifts my chin and wipes the tears off my cheeks with his sleeves. "There,there... Better now?" He asks me. His eyes are all soft, something I haven't ever seen before. "Mmhmm.." I nod and a smile creeps on his lips. My heart forgets to beat for a second,I never knew he was such a beautiful person. I haven't seen him genuinely smile before except for the time when he was with BTS. He gets up and extends his hand in an attempt to help me get up. I accept his hand and stand on my feet again.

He opens the door for me and I step out when my phone pings in my pocket. I take it out and smile at the notification. It's from Jimin. Suga clears his throat and I put my phone back in my pocket. "What's the scene between you and Jimin?" He asks. "Pardon?" I asks back. " Nothing" he sighed. " We are just friends, we have hungout together sometimes, it's q formal sunbae - hubae relation." I answered him. "Then I guess we don't have a normal sunbae-hubae
relation." He says but before I could react I hear my name being called in the lobby. I spot Lucas Oppa running towards me. He jogs towards me and pulls me into a hug. "Gosh, I looked for you everywhere" he said as he held me by my shoulders. I spot Suga smirk behind Lucas. "Sorry for making you worry Oppa." I said ."Oppa my foot! "I heR Suga whisper."Oh , Anneyeonghaseyo sunbae" Lucas bows to Suga. "Yes" he replied with no emotion in his voice. "Come , I'll take you to your dorm ". Lucas offered me. I walk towards my dorm with Lucas. Ad I do , I turn back to look at Suga sunbae and he smiles at me.