Min Yoongi's

4.

After performing our debut song to the Sunbaes , we leave for our dorms , we decided to have our dinner together as a form of celebration at mine and Aera's room. Haru and Lucas Oppa took the responsibility to cook and I can't wait to eat their delicious food, they both have magical hands when it comes to cooking. I ask them to go wait in the room and I'll be back. They go on without me but as they go Lucas Oppa gives me last look and I mouth him that everything's okay.

I make my way to the terrace of the building. The wind is chilly and the night Seoul as always looks beautiful, breathtaking. I go to my usual spot , a wall with a hole in it and there's where I hid my cigar packet. I fell into the habit of smoking the second month of the practice session. I was under such pressure and loneliness was eating me , the difference between the place I was and me was huge and I felt as if I didn't belong to the place and smoking brought a sense of life to me. I was better now but the habit was hard to let go. I light my cigar and sit down with my legs hanging at the edge of terrace. Someone clears their throught behind me and as an sudden instinct I throw my cigar away.

"I didn't consider you that type," the voice said and I turned back to find Suga standing there his hands folded looking out at the scenery ahead."Still putting people into types?" I say with a smirk. He finally looks at me and I turn away and look ahead of me at the night scene. I feel him come sit beside me , maintaining a formal distance. "That's you." He says. I look at him not understanding what he just said. He shrugs and says ," You don't behave like yourself in front of others , you keep faking. You'd do a lot better if you were yourself , even with your music." I keep looking at him, at this person who thinks he knows me. "I don't know what you are talking about." I say. "You'll understand with time" he says as he gets up. 

He bumps into someone as he opens the door to exist. Lucas comes in as Suga closes the door , giving me a certain look before he does. "What was sunbae doing here?" He asked as he placed his jacket over my shoulders. "Mulla" I reply. He chuckles at my korean. " You are becoming pretty good at it."he says and I nudge him on the hips "Stop teasing me!"

We make our way back into my room, Aera and Haru had already set the table up. We had a great dinner and we're chatting sipping some beer straight out of the cans.
"Ah I don't think I'll get a proper sleep till the debut." Aera sighs in between. "Haha still you can't beat hyung in that matter . He hasn't slept even for the past month." Haru laughs. I place a hand on Lucas's shoulder who was sitting near my feet while I sat on th couch. "You should sleep properly, leader" I tease him. "Y/n.... " Aera says my name and we all turn to her. "You are a great rapper and great dancer of course but you know..." She goes silent mid-sentence. "What is it Aera? " I ask her as she looks down at her feet and she murmurs something. I didn't catch what she said but Lucas gives her a look and Haru opens his mouth wide. "You shouldn't say that!" Haru shouts at Aera. "Sorry but I didn't get what she said. What did she say oppa?" I look at Lucas.

His face shows concern as he says "She thinks your difference could be a problem for our team". I am shocked at the statement, I look at Aera but she doesn't look back at me. I look at Haru and he is as confused as me. And before I realise tears start forming at the edge of my eyes and I hate being like this, I hate it when someone sees me cry. So I run away from the room and I slam the door as I do but as I take a turn to the terrace I jump into someone.

"Woah woah slowdown .... Oh ....not the right timing" Jimin says as he holds me by my shoulder and lifts my chin with his fingers. I wipe the tears off my eyes but they don't stop. "What happened?"  he asks me and I can see the worry in his eyes. I try to speak but my voice doesn't come out , I know it will crack if I say something and even before I open my mouth we are interrupted. " Y/n can I meet you in the recording room?" We both look upto the person and it's Suga. "Umm it's about the song..." He says as he meets the questioning look in Jimin's eyes. " Okay , I'll wait outside for you , y/n. " Jimin says as he lets go of my shoulder. Eyeing his hand Suga says " Umm no you may go home tonight Jimin, she'll be a bit late." Jimin looks from Suga to me, and I shrug myself not knowing what he means by saying that.
"Okay then , text me before you sleep." Jimin says as he pats my hair and leaves. I catch Suga rolling his eyes. I wipe my tears hard with the my hand and face Suga. He just turns around and walks towards the recording room.