my little pogchamp [ TommyInnit x Reader ]

twentyseven

TW// mentions of mental health issues later on. My dms are always open if you want to talk

'You know what? Hamilton was much better than I expected.' I said as I turned off Disney+. 

'I still can't believe you hadn't see it before, especially because Wilbur loves it so much.' Tommy laughed. 

'I have no clue why I didn't watch it before.' I laughed. 

'Anyway what's the time?' I asked pulling the blanket off me. 

'HEY GIVE ME THE BLANKET.' Tommy sarcastically groaned. 

'Okay okay chiiiiiill.' I said tossing it to him. 

'The time is 4:32 to be precise.' 

'Okay so what do you want to do?' I asked. 

'Let's just say cooking is out of bounds.' Tommy said. 

'It's so far from the bounds it can't be seen.'

'Exactly.' 

'OHH I KNOW I KNOW.' Tommy said sounding like a child. 

'And what might that be?'

'Let me do your makeup.' 

'Huh?'

'It will be amazing. Trust me.' 

'I have no clue what I'm getting myself in for, but why not.' I laughed. I picked both of us a coke zero as we went past the kitchen. 

'Right so here's all the products, and the brushes. I don't usually wear a lot.' I said laughing. 

'Why is there so many brushes?' 

'Different brushes are for different things. Like that brush there, that looks like a fan, is for highlighter.' 

'Ohh you put that on your cheekbones right?' He asked inspecting the brush. 

'Damm you're such a beauty guru Tommy, James Charles needs to watch out.' I laughed. 

'Yes he does.' 

'So I'll just leave you to do it then.' 

'Yep i'm going to have a lot of fun.'

'Are you going to try to do it properly?' I asked just a little scared.

'I'll try I promise.' He smiled. 

'COME ON LET'S PUT MUSIC ON.' Tommy said. 

'Okay I'll put my playlist.' I got my phone and put my playlist on, the first song that came on was 'White Tee' by Corpse. 

'His voice is so deep I don't get it.' Tommy said putting the primer on. 

'I know right.' I smiled. By the time the song finished, Tommy had finished the foundation and was choosing the concealer. 

'It usually is a shade lighter by the way.' I said trying to help. 

'Oh so this one?' He asked holding up a concealer. 

'Yup.' I smiled. 

'OOOH i love this song.' Tommy smiled. 

'I vibe to This Side of Paradise 24/7.' I laughed as the song actually started. 

Ask me why my heart's inside my throat
I've never been in love, I've been alone
Feel like I've been living life asleep
Love so strong it makes me feel so weak

I looked up at Tommy, he was concentrated on picking eyeshadows, he didn't realise I was staring. 

Our fingers dancing when they meet
You seem so lonely
(Are you lonely?)
I'll be the only dream you seek
So if you're lonely, no need to show me,
If you're lonely come be lonely with me

'Tommy?' I asked as he finally picked two pinkish shaded. 

'Yep.' He said putting the brush down. 

'Thank you.'

'For what?' He laughed sounding a little nervous. 

'For making me happy.'

'You always seem happy though.' He said applying the eyeshadow.

'Well there's something you don't know Tommy.' 

'Oh what's that.' He asked closing the palette and getting the mascara. 

'Can I tell you after you've finished you artwork?' I laughed. 

'Course you can.'

'Right don't stab my eyes.' I said as he opened the mascara. 

'I'll try.' Luckily, he didn't.

'Right I think I'm all done.' He smiled closing the lip gloss bottle.

'Can I look in the mirror?' I asked.

'Yes!' He smiled. 

'Tommy that's actually pretty good.' I smiled, it obviously wasn't perfect but it was better than I expected. 

'Thanks.' He smiled hugging me. 

'TOMMY PUT ME DOWN.' I laughed. 

'NOPE.' He laughed. 

'PLEEEEASE.' I said.

'Fine fine.' He gave in. We put my makeup away so we didn't break our toes. 

'Right umm is it okay if I just say everything at once and if you wanna ask anything you can after?' I asked nervously as we both sat on my bed. 

'Of course.' He smiled. 

'Well I've always struggled with anxiety, since I was about 8 maybe. Then when I was 10, mum noticed how bad it was getting and we went to the doctors to get a diagnoses. Surprise surprise it was anxiety. I was able to keep it under control but when I started secondary school (an// you start secondary school when your 11) things started getting worse. I had friends yes, but they weren't close. Not the type of people who you'd want to tell your secrets or problems to. When Wilbur started getting his platform, slowly people at school started using me for that. There's 4 girls who were the worst. They're called Freya, Isla, Poppy and Lilliana. They bullied me constantly. That's why I was sort of happy when lockdown came because I didn't have to see them face to face. However they still found a way to get to me. They started cyberbullying me, especially Isla, she's like the leader of the group. In May, Wilbur noticed how isolated I was making myself and knew from personal experiance that something wasn't okay. He took me to my local gp and that's when I was diagonsed with depression. For me, it's not the most extreme depression you can get, but when it's bad, it's really fucking bad. Even though we had just started becoming friends not long before my diagnosis, I wanted to tell you because I just felt like I could trust you. You were, and still are obviously, so nice to me on stream. It still makes me laugh how confused it makes big Q sometimes. But when we became closer friends, and obviously I started liking you at this point, it made me happier. That's why I wanted to say thank you Tommy.' I ranted not taking my eyes off of the carpet the whole time, scared to see his reaction

AN// If you're ever having a bad day, feel free to message me. <3 also I think this is the longest part so far