A remake of Asexual Idol. More info about asexuality and the parts of it. Feel free to learn more about asexuality here. This will be in Ruby's POV
KUROSAWA HOUSE
Today was the big day. The day I would come out of the closet. Not just to my friends but to my family. I knew I was fine to come out to my friends and my sister. But my parents wouldn't be as accepting. It took them a while to accept that Dia was bi. I'm afraid to think how they would react to me being ace.
I know being asexual isn't bad or anything. We just don't feel sexual attraction. Well. Little to no sexual attraction. But there's a lot more to asexuality than that. For example while I may not feel any what would be called "desires" for sex, other asexuals might. It's not all just set in stone. It's something different for every person. Some asexuals do feel sexual attraction but it's very rare. And then there's demi-sexual which is also under the asexual umbrella. They feel sexual attraction only after getting to know someone. Some asexuals also like sex while others are repulsed by it. And some people are in between that. I know its complicated but that's how it is.
Then there's romantic attraction. A completely different thing.
Anyways it was time to come out.
I walked out of my room. Anxiety filling me.
I saw my parents at the table. My sister was there too.
I spoke
"C-can I please say something?"
They looked over at me. I let out a pigi. But I kept going
"I-I'm asexual."
My parents looked angry. I let out another pigi. But then I saw Dia coming to protect me. She wouldn't let them hurt me.
I spoke again
"Being asexual doesn't mean I can't still love someone though. I just won't be sexually attracted to them."
"This girl of ours must be broken" I heard my father say.
I started crying. I wasn't broken. I was just different
I ran out of the house. I was already dressed. My hair wasn't up though. I ran to Hanamaru's. Of course Dia would know where I went. She knows me well
I knocked on the door and Hanamaru opened it and let me inside
She was surprised to see me but because I was crying she was ready to comfort me.
"What's wrong Ruby zura?" she said
"I came out as ace. They didn't seem to accept it. Onee-Chan accepted it though"
"Wait. You're ace too zura?"
I was surprised to hear that she was ace as well.
I nodded
"I am. No sexual attraction. No sexual feelings. Nothing"
"I totally understand zura. I don't feel sexual attraction either. Well. I suppose that's kind of a lie zura. I feel it once I get to know someone zura. I feel it towards you zura."
"And I feel romantically attracted to you. "
Before we could kiss I heard the door open. My sister arrived. She knew I went here.
We all had to meet up with the rest of Aqours now. So the 3 of us went.
Dia helped me put my hair up on the way there.
When we met up with everyone I wanted to say it
"Can I please say something before we get started?" I asked
"Of course" was the answer I got
"It's time I come out and say this. I'm asexual."
I was shocked to hear that Kanan was ace too. It seemed she was one who did have sexual feelings.
I didn't have any. Hanamaru was probably somewhere in between. And Kanan fully felt them. Yet neither of us had sexual attraction or not much of it. But there's still more to it.
Oh and the other girls opened up about their sexualites too. Riko and Chika being gay, You and Mari being bi like my sister, and Yoshiko being pan.
This is exciting. Having all of us here like this. Feeling differently sexuality wise. It is different for each person after all. Even for those with more common sexualities as well I'd assume.
And after this LGBT talk the meeting happened. You know. Just basic stuff. Costume and song info. Ideas and stuff. Then some practicing.
After practing I decided to text Leah. She was a friend of mine too. She had to know as well.
So I told her. And she told me that she was also ace. But she rarely felt sexual attraction. But she did say I was one of the only people she felt it for.
Was I now in the middle of a love triangle?
Anyways. She also said her sister, Sarah, was gay. It makes sense. Sarah was dating Chika after all.
Asexuality is broad. There's many parts underneath it. It's hard for one to understand unless they are like we are.
There is one way I can describe the feeling of having no sexual feelings. You know how as a kid you didn't feel anything? Imagine that lasting throughout your whole life.
We aren't broken for not feeling what most people do either. We're just different.
I hope my parents learn to accept my asexuality like they learned to accept Dia's bisexuality. I know it will take a while though.
I hope this remake is better than the original. It should be better lol.
