That afternoon I was sprawled down on the couch, just being lazy and all. Didn’t really want to move much, considering I had nothing to do. I’m not in high school anymore, and not in college either. Decided to take a year off so that I can clear my head before deciding on college.
Got popcorn? Check! Got a blanket? Check! Already watched all the movies we have? Check! Pointless TV reality show? Check! Ugh I need something to dooo.
It was 6 pm when I decided to do something useful with my life. I got up and just as I was about to go upstairs to my room to change, I bumped into Josh. He raised an eyebrow. “Boring afternoon again? You should do something with your life.” I rolled my eyes and continued walking to my room. Unfortunately, he decided to follow me. Halfway there I stopped and turned around. “What do you want, Josh?” He laughed. “What are you laughing at?” He just pointed at my legs. I looked down and noticed that there was some melted chocolate on my thigh. I let out a light laugh.
I walked to the bathroom to clean it up and Josh was still there, behind me. “So do you want to go out tonight, with me, again?” He sounded so nervous. I looked over my shoulder, while sitting on the edge of the tub with water running down my leg. “Um, sure. What do you have in mind?” He took a breath and I interrupted him. “Oh, right. You’re not gonna tell me. Like you usually don’t.” I chuckled as he nodded. I took a towel and dried off my leg and I noticed he was watching carefully with every move I made. “Josh, can I ask you something? But I want you to answer me truthfully.” He nodded, so I continued. “Why do you always look at me like that?” He looked confused. “You’re always staring at me. No matter what I do.” He shrugged. “No, I don’t.” I got up from the tub and returned the towel to its place. “Yes, you do. It’s not that I mind, it’s just…” I sighed before continuing. “You’re always sending out mixed signals. One minute you’re so sweet and caring and the next you’re a complete diva and a jerk.” He looked down. “I just…I don’t know what to expect of you.” I walked out of the bathroom, passing him on the way.
I went to my room and took out the clothes that I want to wear for the night. A cute silver glittery top with black floral print leggings and black platform heel ankle boots. I looked at my watch on the nightstand and decided not to dress yet, it’s only 6:37 pm. I turned towards the door and there he was again, staring at me like he did before. I whined. “Joshhhh. Don’t look at me like that!” He came towards me with a straight face, even though he knows I never whine unless I want to make people laugh. Whining is not my thing. Never was and never will be. “What…what are you doing?” I asked once he reached me and took my hands in his. I felt as if the world stopped for a moment. Everything was still. All I could focus on was Josh. Breathing suddenly became too hard and just standing seemed to drain energy from my body. And that’s when I noticed him. I mean, in the state that he is. All shaken up, breathing heavily though his slightly opened lips. And once I met his eyes…I had to get away. Firstly I backed away, looking at the ground with my bottom lip between my teeth, lightly biting on it. And then walking out the room, before noticing that it’s my room and I’m not exactly dressed to go out. I walked back in. “Could you get out of my room? Please?” I added the innocent little ‘please’ at the end, not to sound bitchy. He nodded before shooting me a look that was all but innocent. And the whole time while walking out of my room, he was still staring at me. This is not, at all what I needed.
