Passion (Johnny Lawrence x reader)

9. I thought I could actually be happy

previously

my whole world just fell apart

  I felt tears form in my eyes as I ran outside I heard Johnny yell my name then I heard a loud crash but I ignored it. I didn't look back once, I walked all the way home and locked myself in my room and cried myself to sleep with thoughts going back and fourth through my head, why wasn't I enough? maybe she kissed him... what if he's not over her? what if I was just a distraction? is he going to break up with me?  And of course I have school tomorrow.

I woke up with bags under my eyes from crying all night. I got up and got dressed for school and rushed out the door so I didn't have to talk to anyone, hopefully Olivia can find a different ride to school.

I got to school and hoped no one would talk to me, I wasn't In the mood. I still can't believe Johnny did this to me. I walked to my locker to put my backpack in there and "hey y/n I wanna talk to you" that voice sounded all to familiar. I slammed my locker and tried to walk away until he grabbed my wrist "let go of me Johnny!" I say in a harsh tone "Oh so she does speak" he says sarcastically "just leave me alone Johnny" I pull out of his grasp and go to class. 

It's 3rd period and I have Johnny in that class so I'm not all to excited. We sit down in our seats and he tries to talk to me again. "y/n please I just want to apologize " "Johnny I've let you off of the hook one to many times , a apology isn't going to fix what happened this time. You screwed up again! And-" "Mrs. y/l/n do we have a problem?" the teacher asks sounding annoyed "uh yes actually we do" I say as I get up and walk out of class without thinking. I'm definitely going to get in trouble when I get home. 

The rest of the 'school day' I spent at the beach. the beach comforts me , the beach is my little diary that I tell all me secrets to. It can't judge me . I finally go home and my mom and dad are fighting, they've been fighting a lot recently and I made the argument worse walking through that door... "y/n y/l/n where the hell have you been !" my mom asks yelling at me "at the beach.." "oh really that's really weird because it's a school day!" she says yelling again " I know I'm really sorry I just-"she interrupts me by saying " you just what? think you don't have to stay in school because your dads the vice principal and you can just get away with everything!"  i start to cry she's never yelled at me like this before.. "no...that's not it i-" "just go to your room" "mom" "'MOM' NOTHING GO!" I run to my room crying and cry myself to sleep ...again. The rest of the night I heard muffled arguing.

I thought I could actually be happy..

The "you screwed up again!" def was not inspired by the vampire diaries...anyways..