Passion (Johnny Lawrence x reader)

16.Why does it always have to be me.

I get home and just sit in the drive way for a minute still crying. I don't know what I'm going to do but I won't break up with Johnny. I walk inside and my mom and sister are on the couch. They look like they're waiting for someone. I knew it.

"What the hell do you guys want!?" I say. They clearly knew what was going to happen today.

"Please don't be upset honey, it's what's best for you . I care about you, If it makes you feel any better your father didn't want to do it!" my mom says.

"No it's not what's best for me , it's what you think is best for you. You guys don't care about us, you just care about what the other families around here will think about you guys if your 'perfect' daughter has some bad grades. What about Olivia huh? she's failing every class but I'm sure she's still aloud around Jimmy and the guys. Right? because Olivia's so perfect right? Maybe instead of being up my ass every five minutes you should see what your other daughter is up too!" I yell and walk out the door. I can hear them yelling my name but i get in my car and just start driving. I don't know where I just drive. 

I end up at the beach and get out of my car and just stare at the ocean. It really is beautiful, although it is kind of scary. I just sit down and start talking , I know you probably think it's weird but the ocean won't tell anyone anything? so why not? I stay here for a little while until Johnny and the guys pull up. I panic and try to go to my car but the guys stop me.

"Why the hell were you ignoring me earlier? Did I do something wrong?" Johnny asks.  I try to walk past him but Tommy get's in front of me. 

"Tommy just let me leave please?" I say but he doesn't move "Tommy please" I say but a little more quiet again but he just stands there looking at me like I'm stupid or something.

"Not until you answer Johnny" he says. Oh my god, just let me leave.

"I can't" I say but everyone just looks at me confused . "I can't okay, I'm actually not supposed to be talking to ANY of you so please just let me leave. I really do not want to deal with this right now" I think they caught on after I said that because they just nodded their heads and let me leave. 

It was pretty late so I'm hoping my parents are sleeping. I get home and they are so I just head up to my room , Olivia is in there waiting for me though. 

"What you did earlier was pretty bad ass" she says with a awkward laugh.

"Yep." I say in response. 

"I know you're mad-" she says but I cut her off

"Mad? That's an understatement . Olivia I always stick up for you, I always have . Even when we were younger, but you never stick up for me and I'm tired of it. So please just please leave me alone" I say starting to cry. She just stares at me for a second then gets up and leaves. I don't know what to feel right now. I'm angry, sad, tired, overall I just felt miserable . I'll just sleep it off I guess....

Why does it always have to be me?