𝐒𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭 ----> 𝐘𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐞! 𝐇𝐢𝐬𝐨𝐤𝐚 𝐗 𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫

-13-

Hisoka's POV:

Although I am really upset that she decided to do that but if I thought about it the other way, she must have gotten jealous that was why she did it. If she was jealous she definitely does love me at least a little bit. However I am still unable to forget about how she tried to sleep with another man. Just the thought of her and another man on the same bed makes me furious.

As much as I would love to, I will not be killing Chrollo or Machi off... At least for now. She knows that being so obvious about sleeping with another men will definitely get her in trouble but why did she target Chrollo? Was it because they had history or was it simply because she thinks that if I got angry and tried to kill him he would be able to kill me?

If I died she can continue living the life she used to have which was so boring, I am the one who brought interest into her life but she just doesn't see it.

I decided that it would be best if I just waited and observed her for the time being.

Y/N's POV:

It had been over 24 hours and Hisoka hasn't touched me or even talked to me yet and it was starting to get on my nerves. Maybe it was just simply because I was not used to him being so quiet, or maybe it was because I feel threatened by his overwhelming bloodlust. 

I had been resisting the urge to tell him that it was a plan so he would just hurt me and get it over with. However, if I told him that it was my plan and took responsibility for this whole matter I would not be seeing the day light of tomorrow. I know that people always say to take responsibility for your actions and stuff but who would dare to in this situation...

I looked over at him, he had a dead look on his face and he had his back was slouched. He had this overwhelming bloodlust flowing out of him without even having to try at all. 

'He really is a beast huh'

I gulped and looked away again scared for my life and my down there.....
(R.I.P THAT PUSSY AYYYYEEEEEE)

I then finally decided that I would tell him my real plan and most probably get fucked by him for the entire night but I would finally get to sleep... 

After I told him my original plan and apologized he took me by surprise by being quiet the entire time. 

"Can you talk to me now?" I asked him feeling embarrassed and ashamed of myself, really, what have I came to. Begging my kidnapper and abuser to talk to me and apologizing to him...

I looked down while feeling that uncomfortable feeling my heart while anxiously scratching my left arm.

"So you did this... Out of pure jealousy?" He questioned and I looked up. He had an unreadable expression on his face that was never the case for him. Yeah he was always unreadable but this time he had this expression where he looks like he was not up to anything good or bad in particular. 

I nodded my head feeling ashamed of myself that i would do all this just for my kidnapper to not get bored of me...

Although he was not overflowing with bloodlust like always, there was still this tension between us that I hated...

Why? I don't know either... he's my kidnapper, he is the one who took me away from my happy and normal life, he abused me sexually and physically, he kept me from all my loved ones so why? Why do I still feel this way towards him?

I thought all these ridiculous feelings towards him would all be gone soon after he kidnapped me and it did go away for a while... Then why are they coming back to me after these time? They could have just stayed out of my way...

"If your jealous... Do you love me?" He asked with a dead look on his face.

"If you don't I'll let you go," He said as he looked to the side.

I felt my heart sink into an empty space. I felt... heartbroken...

"So you do like her more than me?" I asked with tears rolling down my eyes. Not to be dramatic but this felt like a breakup. I looked at him with a sad smile while crippling in sadness on the inside.

He sighed, "Y/N, you can't expect me to keep feeling good and happy when you keep pushing me away when I am trying to show you my love and affection. Whenever I try to do something you always look sad and uncomfortable around me. Machi is different. She enjoys it." He held his head in his hand. "It's not that I like her more. I like her, but I love you. It's just that I feel like if you can't be true to your feelings then you wouldn't want to be with me..."

I looked down on the floor and nodded my head. I did not want to let him see just how hurt I am by him saying this.

"Perfect! I'll leave right now then!" I tried my best to sound happy and cheery but my heart felt like it was getting stabbed a thousand times every passing second. I then stood up and took the things I brought here with me and left. I made sure that I did not take anything he bought for me.

I reached the ground floor of Heavens Arena. I tried to cover up my teary and red eyes but there was no way people were going to not see it so I put on a pair on shades and walked confidently with a smile.

"Isn't she the one who is with Hisoka?"

"If she leaves then we might finally have a chance!"

"Thank god she is leaving I don't want to see her anywhere near him,"

I heard gossips about me right when I stepped out of the elevator with my luggage in hand. I rolled my eyes but of course they will never be able to see it. If they really think that they even have a chance they are dreaming. 

Finally, I can get away from all this hate that I have been getting for no reason at all. I was getting tired of this anyway.