blue and grey ~ KSJ

Introduction

My name is Kim (y/n), and I'm Kim Seokjin's little sister, 24 years old. He doesn't know, but I've had very bad depression and anxiety for most of my life. Self diagnosed; my parents refused to take me to a therapist when I asked. They think I'm too cheerful.

I always felt invalidated by my parents; when I was about 7 years old they started making fun of me for showing what I believed to be symptoms of anxiety; stuff like fidgeting, crying a lot and getting frequent bad dreams. They called me a baby, they called me weird, and they called me embarrassing. I never told my brother, because I didn't want him to feel like he couldn't trust them anymore.

Later on, at about 11 years old, I believe I gained depression. I was being bullied at school, and of course, my parents were still picking on me. I cried a lot, and I never told anyone. I told Jin I had lots of friends that were very nice to me, and my mental health was fine. He believed me, fortunately.

But, life isn't all sadness and pain. I love my brother, and hanging out with him makes me really happy. Although, I haven't been hanging around with him recently. I'm in college, and I don't have time for him anymore, as much as I hate to say it.

Also, I'm not planning to tell my brother at any point. He doesn't need to know.

Jin's POV
I remember when (y/n) was born. She was such a small little baby, and four year old me was fascinated. I was determined to be the best brother I could be. So, I would save up my pocket money to buy her gifts; stuff like rattles or plushies. As she got a little older, and as did I, I started taking her on walks and playing with her in the garden. I only had a few friends in total, so going home to see her made me a little happier everyday.
She was a clingy and sensitive kid; she would cry whenever I poked fun at her, so I stopped. But other than that, she was a good and cheerful kid. I picked up cooking at a young age, so I would often make her food, and she would act like she hadn't eaten in days. It was adorable.
In a few days, I'm visiting her apartment to see how she's doing. I hope she's well, I've missed her so much.